so here it is.
me and jacob are no longer in relations.
i moved out. for the ebst. too much complications. i need simplicity. without destruction. who knows where i will be in 5 mins. tommorow. a month....ten years. who cares. i never should have had relations with him. cos now all our friends are just his. and he wants nothing to do with me. period.
not much else to say. im a piece of shit. ive come to that realization. yet again.
it never works.
i need new hobbies. friends. i dont want relationships. just to learn. to laugh. and to be happy.
it sucks to not be able to see somone and have it not be your choice but theirs. and want to so bad. it really sucks.
it sucks to sleep on a couch. alone. not have anywhere to go. no one to talk to and nothing to do. just lay there staring. off into space. i have a couple clothes. my phone. and a blanket. thats all i have room for. everythings packed away. icant enjoy it. i cant feel it. i cant use it. i really miss my baby kitty. i saved her. i need her. im just alone. no one wants to talk to me about anything. i dont have ONE friend to talk this through with. this is the first time ive been alone. and i really hate it.
this was really inconvenient.
id also like to thank tj rathburns sister lexi. for being a piece of shit. i dont care who gets pissed for me calling her that. she is a drama obsessed lying jerk. and theyd thinkt hat too if they knew what she did. she told jay lies about me to destroy my relationship.
so she knows he knows the truth now.
that shes a liar. someone with credibility told him the truth. i hope she gets whats coming to her. she wants to fuck with relationships. she doesnt deserve the ones shes in. i know the truth and if i was to pst it it could damage her entire life like she did mine. but ill be nice. and leave it to the imagination. because i have just a little bit more decency than she apparently has and what i can say atleast isnt a lie. you dont go fucking with peoples relationships. especially not mine. because i can always find out the truth and ALWAYS seem to come up with more damaging things but unlike them i can never seem to bring myself to use them. unless provoked.
period.
whatever. its a buncha drama. im entitles to talk my shit once and a while. i get accused of it when i dont do it anyways.
who fucking cares.
beause i dont.
i moved out. for the ebst. too much complications. i need simplicity. without destruction. who knows where i will be in 5 mins. tommorow. a month....ten years. who cares. i never should have had relations with him. cos now all our friends are just his. and he wants nothing to do with me. period.
not much else to say. im a piece of shit. ive come to that realization. yet again.
it never works.
i need new hobbies. friends. i dont want relationships. just to learn. to laugh. and to be happy.
it sucks to not be able to see somone and have it not be your choice but theirs. and want to so bad. it really sucks.
it sucks to sleep on a couch. alone. not have anywhere to go. no one to talk to and nothing to do. just lay there staring. off into space. i have a couple clothes. my phone. and a blanket. thats all i have room for. everythings packed away. icant enjoy it. i cant feel it. i cant use it. i really miss my baby kitty. i saved her. i need her. im just alone. no one wants to talk to me about anything. i dont have ONE friend to talk this through with. this is the first time ive been alone. and i really hate it.
this was really inconvenient.
id also like to thank tj rathburns sister lexi. for being a piece of shit. i dont care who gets pissed for me calling her that. she is a drama obsessed lying jerk. and theyd thinkt hat too if they knew what she did. she told jay lies about me to destroy my relationship.
so she knows he knows the truth now.
that shes a liar. someone with credibility told him the truth. i hope she gets whats coming to her. she wants to fuck with relationships. she doesnt deserve the ones shes in. i know the truth and if i was to pst it it could damage her entire life like she did mine. but ill be nice. and leave it to the imagination. because i have just a little bit more decency than she apparently has and what i can say atleast isnt a lie. you dont go fucking with peoples relationships. especially not mine. because i can always find out the truth and ALWAYS seem to come up with more damaging things but unlike them i can never seem to bring myself to use them. unless provoked.
period.
whatever. its a buncha drama. im entitles to talk my shit once and a while. i get accused of it when i dont do it anyways.
who fucking cares.
beause i dont.