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So I put my retainers in for the first time in months...and I had to like shove the top one on cause my teeth have gotten so bad. I'm gonna have a killer headache in the morning.
Today was a good day, for the most part. I was rushed like a mother effer cause I forgot I had to take my sister to maryanne's gym before class. And I was stressed and frustrated, but then I looked at the pretty mountains and everything was better. Thank goodness for first rains.
The bad part of my day though...I got in a fight with my mom. Actually, I wouldn't even call it a fight. She hurt my feelings and I grabbed my stuff and walked out the door with tears in my eyes saying "I love you guys" as I did so. I went outside and tried to storm off all angry cause Edwin was out there, but I couldn't. Amalia was asking me to stay at "me hause" (her house)....She makes life worth living.
But yeah, basically, my mom wont put my car on her insurance. All this time she said we could do that because full coverage under my mom is only 86 a month, and the minimum coverage under my dad is 108. Hm. Difficult decision. So all of a sudden, a day after we buy the car, she says I can't be under her. And gives me this bull shit excuse as to why I can't. So I say "Its Edwin isnt it?" And the look she gave me broke my heart. It was the "I love you and I know this is best for you, but he's my husband and there's nothing I can do about it" look. Ouch. Just writing that makes my eyes well up with tears again. I seriously cried the whole way home...just sobbed. Ethan will turn 16, get his license, get the black truck, and get full insurance under my mom...paid for of course. Unfuckingbelievable. I'm her baby too!! Is 2 years with a perfect driving record not enough to make her see that I'm responsible??? I just can't help thinking that this is only the beginning. They're gonna move in a few years...probably to woodlake...and I'll never see them. Up until today, I always thought no matter what he said, she'd do what was best for us. And me being 18 is no excuse. If I still have enough respect for her to let her guide my decisions, then she should have enough respect for me to do what's best...no matter what he says.
So yeah. Harsh reality wake up call, I guess.
So anywho...in psychology today, we took our first test...and the first one of our group to finish was supposed to come up and turn our test in and pick a topic from the next chapter for our whole group to research. There were choices like "emotion" and "motivation"...But what do you think this bitch picked??..."sex" damn straight. I really wanted to see the look on the faces of the guys in my group, but we got to leave when we were done. haha Next week should be fun.
Today was a good day, for the most part. I was rushed like a mother effer cause I forgot I had to take my sister to maryanne's gym before class. And I was stressed and frustrated, but then I looked at the pretty mountains and everything was better. Thank goodness for first rains.
The bad part of my day though...I got in a fight with my mom. Actually, I wouldn't even call it a fight. She hurt my feelings and I grabbed my stuff and walked out the door with tears in my eyes saying "I love you guys" as I did so. I went outside and tried to storm off all angry cause Edwin was out there, but I couldn't. Amalia was asking me to stay at "me hause" (her house)....She makes life worth living.
But yeah, basically, my mom wont put my car on her insurance. All this time she said we could do that because full coverage under my mom is only 86 a month, and the minimum coverage under my dad is 108. Hm. Difficult decision. So all of a sudden, a day after we buy the car, she says I can't be under her. And gives me this bull shit excuse as to why I can't. So I say "Its Edwin isnt it?" And the look she gave me broke my heart. It was the "I love you and I know this is best for you, but he's my husband and there's nothing I can do about it" look. Ouch. Just writing that makes my eyes well up with tears again. I seriously cried the whole way home...just sobbed. Ethan will turn 16, get his license, get the black truck, and get full insurance under my mom...paid for of course. Unfuckingbelievable. I'm her baby too!! Is 2 years with a perfect driving record not enough to make her see that I'm responsible??? I just can't help thinking that this is only the beginning. They're gonna move in a few years...probably to woodlake...and I'll never see them. Up until today, I always thought no matter what he said, she'd do what was best for us. And me being 18 is no excuse. If I still have enough respect for her to let her guide my decisions, then she should have enough respect for me to do what's best...no matter what he says.
So yeah. Harsh reality wake up call, I guess.
So anywho...in psychology today, we took our first test...and the first one of our group to finish was supposed to come up and turn our test in and pick a topic from the next chapter for our whole group to research. There were choices like "emotion" and "motivation"...But what do you think this bitch picked??..."sex" damn straight. I really wanted to see the look on the faces of the guys in my group, but we got to leave when we were done. haha Next week should be fun.