Jul 16, 2005 13:04
So, ya know how sometimes doing something just makes you sick to your stomach, but you can't help doing it? Thats how I feel about looking at his myspace. I don't understand it. I don't like him, I don't want him. And yet, it tears me up inside that he has somebody. And worst of all, she's freaking adorable. and she says "i love you" and they have those little nicknames that make the rest of us want to gag. I don't get it, I really don't. But somehow, I can't stop looking. I keep reading and searching (for what, I have no idea) and I just get more and more hurt.
Does wanting to inflict pain on yourself make you a sado-masochist?
And as far as my friends go, really now. I've had enough. How in the fucking hell could you do that to me? I seriously can't believe you.