Gramma, concluded
Gramma died yesterday evening. I had phoned my parents to chat that afternoon and had planned on sending them a list of times this week when I'd be home and available for 'the call', and Dale and I were halfway through watching a particularly good episode of DS9 ("The Die is Cast") when my phone rang.
I don't know how I feel. I was more upset yesterday afternoon when my aunt emailed saying this would probably be Gramma's last day. It feels surreal, it doesn't feel real, like I could go to Delta and visit her in the house she lived in all my life and hasn't lived in for several months and everything would be the way it was. I don't know if it will feel real until the funeral on Sunday.
I'm glad I visited last weekend. I'm glad we had a last family dinner together on Thanksgiving. I'm glad she had a long life full of family she loved and trips around the world, and had a high quality of life until the very end. I'm glad it wasn't on dad's birthday.
And now I'm trying to deal with the mundanities of finding clothing appropriate to wear to a funeral and scheduling (or rescheduling) time with friends next weekend. The routine of work and Japananese study was a better distraction.
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I don't know how I feel. I was more upset yesterday afternoon when my aunt emailed saying this would probably be Gramma's last day. It feels surreal, it doesn't feel real, like I could go to Delta and visit her in the house she lived in all my life and hasn't lived in for several months and everything would be the way it was. I don't know if it will feel real until the funeral on Sunday.
I'm glad I visited last weekend. I'm glad we had a last family dinner together on Thanksgiving. I'm glad she had a long life full of family she loved and trips around the world, and had a high quality of life until the very end. I'm glad it wasn't on dad's birthday.
And now I'm trying to deal with the mundanities of finding clothing appropriate to wear to a funeral and scheduling (or rescheduling) time with friends next weekend. The routine of work and Japananese study was a better distraction.
Original post at Dreamwidth |
| Comment there or here.