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Well, here I am again. About to approach another school year and wishing I could have everything. Kind of a, have my cate and eat too thing ya know? I LOVE living with my dad, but I wish I were back at Chariho. Pilgim called today.
For some reason, whenever they interact with me, I get screwed.
I can not take Calc H, because I did not get an B in the class, silly me got a 76. oops. So I guess working my ass off sophmore year meant nothing. And now, the Props and Stats class they want to put me in (which of course if I get an A in I can go to Calc next... oh wait... you're a senior.) interfers with the one class I truly truly want to take. The only fun class I have all year. I busted my ass the past 3 years, and now I look back and think why?
why should I have bothered? What does it matter? I was the "smart girl" at Chariho. I had a place. I have friends. And now I'm stuck in a hellhole that's robbing me of an education because of some god damn contract and not one person from there has bothered to contact me this summer.
I've been thinking alot about how I didn't change my schedule at work. And how i have most days to myself, and about how lazy that must seem to everyone. And then I look at what my life will be in a few weeks, and I know I've earned the right to a little relaxation. Once school starts, I will have Rainbow every weekend, sometimes even all weekend, a difficult course load and a job. Is that lazy?
I was also thinking today how great it was that I'd finally accepted me for me. I was like being in love, just with myself. And then I broke the goddamn toilet seat. Yup, don't really know how i managed it but I did and now I have to face the humilation of telling my parents. that should really do wonders for the self-esteem.
Oh well I'll just call Jake and complain to him tomorrow I guess...
<3 Me
For some reason, whenever they interact with me, I get screwed.
I can not take Calc H, because I did not get an B in the class, silly me got a 76. oops. So I guess working my ass off sophmore year meant nothing. And now, the Props and Stats class they want to put me in (which of course if I get an A in I can go to Calc next... oh wait... you're a senior.) interfers with the one class I truly truly want to take. The only fun class I have all year. I busted my ass the past 3 years, and now I look back and think why?
why should I have bothered? What does it matter? I was the "smart girl" at Chariho. I had a place. I have friends. And now I'm stuck in a hellhole that's robbing me of an education because of some god damn contract and not one person from there has bothered to contact me this summer.
I've been thinking alot about how I didn't change my schedule at work. And how i have most days to myself, and about how lazy that must seem to everyone. And then I look at what my life will be in a few weeks, and I know I've earned the right to a little relaxation. Once school starts, I will have Rainbow every weekend, sometimes even all weekend, a difficult course load and a job. Is that lazy?
I was also thinking today how great it was that I'd finally accepted me for me. I was like being in love, just with myself. And then I broke the goddamn toilet seat. Yup, don't really know how i managed it but I did and now I have to face the humilation of telling my parents. that should really do wonders for the self-esteem.
Oh well I'll just call Jake and complain to him tomorrow I guess...
<3 Me