I want to apologize....
I never, EVER, meant to "spill the beans" about the house and other things that I recently posted.
But I was sitting here filling out the application for food stamps, while I was posting to my SIL, and just started sobbing. We had such a good life in Cleveland. A nice house, good jobs, family, Andrew had not only a good job but free education lined up at CSU (his job was there). But we needed Ron's insurance - esp with the RRMS. My company didn't offer it. And Ron was always very close to my brother so we figured Chicago would be a good and fun move.
Shit.... What did we know? After two terrible tennants, we decided to give the house up. Our attorney suggested a Mea Culpa surrender - which is basically, you give the house back to the bank and you don't owe anything that you're "under". Even if we sold it, we would've lost $40,000 - what we still owed after the sale + all the work we put into it.
Even my brother moved. After he has his very first child, and I'm so excited, he ups and moves (three times last year!). So now we don't even have family here.
Then I can't find a permanent job. Just been doing temp work for three years. I really thought this company was going to work, all the talk about how much new business they have hasn't panned out. In fact, I stopped by on Friday to pick something up and found out that they called back two other people, even though they "promised" I would be the first one called back. This depressed me even more. Seriously depressed.
After not working for a couple of months earlier this year, we were just about all caught up on the bills, too. We have one month's savings in the bank, and that's what worries me. What do we do after that? How do we pay utilities, insurance, cell phone? I've cut down on all that I can - electricity, satellite, cell phone, newspaper, even cancelled our renter's insurance. Unless Andrew gets one of these jobs, we'll have to cancel school this summer.
I should be like silver and do a gratitude list. But there isn't must to be grateful for in my life anymore. The future looks so depressing and bleak.
I appreciate the well wishes, but I know it's hard to write anything. One just doesn't know what to say when situations like this happen. Just wanted people to know that even though I haven't really posted or said much lately. I'm still here. At least physically.
But I was sitting here filling out the application for food stamps, while I was posting to my SIL, and just started sobbing. We had such a good life in Cleveland. A nice house, good jobs, family, Andrew had not only a good job but free education lined up at CSU (his job was there). But we needed Ron's insurance - esp with the RRMS. My company didn't offer it. And Ron was always very close to my brother so we figured Chicago would be a good and fun move.
Shit.... What did we know? After two terrible tennants, we decided to give the house up. Our attorney suggested a Mea Culpa surrender - which is basically, you give the house back to the bank and you don't owe anything that you're "under". Even if we sold it, we would've lost $40,000 - what we still owed after the sale + all the work we put into it.
Even my brother moved. After he has his very first child, and I'm so excited, he ups and moves (three times last year!). So now we don't even have family here.
Then I can't find a permanent job. Just been doing temp work for three years. I really thought this company was going to work, all the talk about how much new business they have hasn't panned out. In fact, I stopped by on Friday to pick something up and found out that they called back two other people, even though they "promised" I would be the first one called back. This depressed me even more. Seriously depressed.
After not working for a couple of months earlier this year, we were just about all caught up on the bills, too. We have one month's savings in the bank, and that's what worries me. What do we do after that? How do we pay utilities, insurance, cell phone? I've cut down on all that I can - electricity, satellite, cell phone, newspaper, even cancelled our renter's insurance. Unless Andrew gets one of these jobs, we'll have to cancel school this summer.
I should be like silver and do a gratitude list. But there isn't must to be grateful for in my life anymore. The future looks so depressing and bleak.
I appreciate the well wishes, but I know it's hard to write anything. One just doesn't know what to say when situations like this happen. Just wanted people to know that even though I haven't really posted or said much lately. I'm still here. At least physically.