black and blue

May 22, 2010 21:37

i am so into black! my nails are black, my boots are black, my skirts are black, my scarf is black, my fold-up flats are black, my tops are black and my hair is black. sometimes i do mix it up and add a leopard print cardigan, or gray scarves and skirts in for good measure or sometimes i just wear a printed green skirt (which reminds me of the musical, wicked) with black and sometimes i wear a floral skirt with a purple sweater or just with black. i love my clothes, and i bought a new pair of killer black suede high heeled boots. i've been dying for a pair of boooooty heels for ages and now i have them!!! *hugs them tightly*
(i actually wanted the boot on the far left of the picture, but they didn't have size 36/5 for me!)



ever since heath and i became friends, well, i haven't contacted him at all. in fact, i've been doing everything he hates, well, things he doesn't really say he doesn't approve of but wouldn't necessarily do and it made me think. it made me think about how different we really are and how we probably just liked to make out and hold hands and hug a lot. how come i thought about heath after everything? because the boy called me up wanting to hang out and i dogged him, like, i said no! i think i need time to still get over everything, and the call took me by surprise and i also have a major group assessment due monday.

over the past few weeks that i haven't seen or spoken to heath, i'd be tuning into the radio listening to non-stop r'n'b, whereas he prefers indie and trance/dance. i don't mind indie bands, in fact i have a secret thing for indie bands and i have had so ever since i was fourteen but lately i've been craving for something more easy on the ears and r'n'b does it for me, it's so sweet and delicious and catchy. i can dance to it, shake my butt in my boooooty heels to it. he's a thinker, i am a lazy girl. i prefer to read about books, movies and watch/read about trash and fashion rather than watch documentaries although i guess i would, just not before i've read the latest issue of shop til you drop (magazine with only clothes, shoes, make-up and models), or cleo (equiv. to cosmopolitan with less sex) and vogue! i think, in the end, boys really take it out of me. i tend to do what i feel they would like their dream girl to be rather than be myself. i start to read about politics without really wanting to and i don't want to do something i don't want to. i can see the benefits of doing it, but i want to do it on my own terms, does that make sense? i don't mind being me and i'm really happy that heath and i are friends. it lets me be me, without the stress and insecurity about relationships and being someone i'm not engineered to be.

someday i will find someone who likes the fashion toting bunny that i am, and r'n'b loving (i was going to type 'diva', and if i did, i'd spew)...girl with a penchant for reading newspaper headlines, editorials and entertainment sections and tons of romantic films.

p.s. i really want to watch sex and the city 2!! i have the whole series (and would you believe that i havent' finished watching it?) and i actually haven't seen the sex and the city movie. i blow i know!
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