Aug 21, 2010 02:54
Apparently, this letter is bawfest. What do YOU think?
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To: B______
Subject: Moo
I can't do subjects. So you get a cow sound. I'm talking to you because at some point, you were actually my friend, and possibly still are, now. Maybe your hackles won't be raised from the getgo.
I understand that D____ has a big problem with me, and probably you, too, since you both tend to share the same opinions. That's fine. Next time, be up front, because all it's led to is more drama in my house, and I don't want any more of it. People here are convinced D____'s saying things about Panda and that she is very insincere in her friendship with him, as she was with me. I don't know if that's true, but what I do know is that if she'd been up front, this wouldn't have happened.
In the spirit of this, I will be up front with you.
Recently, Q___ decided that he hated Panda, and he wouldn't tell us why. He texted this morning and said he won't be accepting payment to mow our yard, and that he wanted his PS3 game he bought to play in our house back. Naturally, Panda was very upset because he didn't know what was wrong. I told Q___ he would not be setting foot in my home without explaining himself, and since the game has been on my property for several months, he doesn't have a PS3, and he doesn't have the receipt for the purchase, I would be holding onto the game as well. He still hasn't gotten his game, but he's free to do so now. I told him he was being childish when he said he'd rather give up the game than talk about what was bothering him, so he called Panda. He told Panda and Baka a myriad of things, the least of which were things like, "If I make Panda upset, it's none of Buck's business," "I'm uncomfortable about Panda asking Buck to stay in our hotel room, and now since he left, we're struggling to pay for the room," "Someone at M_______'s party told me that Panda said I was a whore," among other things. I won't blab about what I think of Q___'s role in all this, but I will address the other ones (that, sic) concern you and, mainly, D____.
As far as the hotel room: Panda offered from the beginning to pay for the room despite not using it. I don't know about you two, but Q___ soundly refused the offer and demanded he not bother. His complaints are not very fair because of that. Once again, though, in regards to the room drama, if you and D____ had SAID you had a problem with me from the beginning, no one would be very upset about all that. I would be willing to just pay you for it, but I have been forbidden to do so, since you refused the initial offer.
All the people who have visited my house are fairly convinced that D____ HAS to be the one who told Q___ that Panda called him a whore. I don't think that's necessarily true, but I can't convince anyone otherwise, and the "facts" add up against her. Panda did say he was a flirt, and admits to it. Not that anyone who goes to his FA can't tell for themselves. However, the "whore" or "sleeping around" comments are inaccurate. Again, I'm not entirely convinced it's true, but if D____ has a problem with me or Panda, I request that she doesn't use her malice against us, i.e. talk about us to other people. I'm to understand D____ has said some pretty shitty things about me, even before she knew me, and yet here I am, defending her from everyone here. Regardless of that, I ask that we are not spoken about in ill will. I say nothing but the truth about you two, and nothing based on conjecture. The worst I will say about D____ is that she is untrusting and holds a mean grudge, and the worst I'll say about you is you have a propensity to try to make people happy to a fault. Is that untrue? Correct me if I'm wrong.
I guess my point is...
Everyone around here claims they hate drama and that they don't perpetuate it. Yet, here we are. By not being honest and open, we've opened a whole new can of worms that won't stay shut. No one says everything they feel, and it's probably better that way, and sometimes it's best not to approach certain disagreements at sour times, but nothing is worse for drama management than to be underhanded, talk behind people's backs, and perpetuate rumors. In my opinion, the group over in Bartlett has no room to complain about drama that they themselves create. That's a bit harsh, but I don't hear any bad news coming from furries around here right now. Then again, apparently we're quite the buzz over there. Go figure.
To be clear, I don't hate anyone. Other than Q___, with whom I'm rather upset, I'm just tired, and I don't think any of you give a shit about us. Panda is very upset about losing any of you, especially M_______ and Q___, and I feel bad for him since apparently this keeps happening over and over again. I really hope you will choose to be sincere friends with him. As for me, though, I don't want to be friends if you guys don't really consider me a friend. I won't be cold to you or poop all over your name when I'm with my friends, and I expect that you won't do the same for me. Let my own actions speak for me; I don't need your help to build a reputation.
Truth be told, I don't think D____ has been very fair with me, and I don't think her unforgiving resentment is warranted. Since she DOES talk to people about everyone she hates, I can only assume she talks to everyone about me in a negative light. Frankly, that's not her place, considering the only grudges she has against me to my knowledge are our fight with P__________ (which I THOUGHT we'd resolved) and the fact that I'm too nice and forgiving or something. I don't want to sound rude, but that's the most retarded complaint you could possibly have about your friend's boyfriend. It really is, and you can tell her I said that.
If you have anything to say, you can respond, since it's your prerogative. However, I'm really tired of hearing about bullshit day in and day out, and I'm at a point of apathy about associating with any of you. Granted, I don't hold grudges if at some point things are patched up. Until then, though, I just want to be left alone.
So yeah. I don't think I've been mean or unfair, so I guess that's all I have to say.
Yours,
Buck
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So, yeah. And here's the response.
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Subject: lol furries
Internet tough guys are epic lolz. Keep telling yourself that sending my boyfriend tl;dr nastygrams about what a meanie I am is doing something. Your tears are sweet and delicious.