if u could have one wish what would it be?
well if i could have one wish it would be that i could go back to the night where everything changed for me. the one thing that changed the direction in which my life is going in. the one moment that changed what was going to happen next. if i could then i would be with him and i would be on the right track. everything would feel right nothing would be wrong and i would be happy. but u see i can wish all i want but nothing will change the fact that he is gone. no longer am i in his arms and no longer am i happy. the funny thing is that i promised myself that i would not go back to this place, this state in which i am in. i promised myself that i would not fall for him again and that i would not allow myself to be brought back to the one place i was after he hurt me but u know what i am. i broke a promise to myself. even though i am in this place i would not change a damn thing cuz for those few moments i had with him were the best i have had. he made me feel like i was the only one he saw and for him to look at me just once the way he did was great. the only thing i would change is the outcome of everything. if i could change the way i feel then i would be ok. but u know what, i may feel this way now but i know that i will get through this, no one should ever have had this much effect on me like he did. if i could have him back i would but its not really up to me. if i am to be with him then i will. if not hten i will find the person i am to be with someday in my future and i will be happy. well thats enough for no talk to u later, sarah