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so my (great) Aunt Margie passed away this morning. Of course it's different than the other two people who have passed away in the past couple weeks because she was old and it's expected; but Sunday and Monday are still going to suck ballz (yes with a z). I can only hope to live until I'm 82. Man I don't even want to go to anything, I horrible, I just want to vomit. I can't wait to go into the city next weekend for hang out time with Jesse. A good hang out in general was needed, but add Jesse to the equation and it's so much better! I have missed that kid and he's been so close and I haven't seen him yet! Hopefully he doesn't have to work! We were supposed to go visit my Dad on Sunday but that is now canceled, although I'm sure he will be there Sunday/Monday for everything. I wish my car worked because I'd go visit. My stepmom and Dad plan on moving by the end of the year. They have land in South Carolina and that's where they're moving. Not exactly an easy visit. I feel like such a horrible daughter for never seeing my Dad. It's not like we have some horrible relationship and I hate him, it's the complete opposite. Sure I'm not that fond of my stepmom, but I can deal with that to see my Dad. Plus in small doses she's okay. I still need to know what's up with Barb (that's my stepmom) and this surgery she had or is having this week. A filter of some sort is getting put into her vein because last year she almost died from a blood clot going into her lung. My Dad, Lord knows what's up with him, he's on a lot of medicine for all his aliments, which I don't even know everything that is wrong with him. I wish they would just be upfront and let us know what's going on. I'd rather know and know what I'm worrying about instead of just worrying about the unknown and what could happen. I wonder if Heather is still in the office; she's my financial aid person at school. I need to know what loans I should be applying for, both Stafford and the unsubsidized Stafford?!? Once I figure that out then I can apply for my personal loan. Once I get that shit together I'll be really happy and know that I'm set for school and know that come June I'll be off learning and enjoying the awesomeness that is Vermont nature! I want to go on hikes and camp and enjoy myself, focus on all the good that will be my future instead of focusing on the crap that is right now!
I like potatoes.
I like potatoes.