Wow...
So, my favorite manager at work had his last day today. I love Aaron so much. He was such a cool guy, and he would always come back and talk to me. No other managers really do that. We liked the same kind of music and we would give each other recommendations. He's going to law school full time in the fall. I'm super happy for him, cause he's wanted to do this for a long time...but I will be sad when he isn't there at work anymore.
But, with Aaron leaving, it makes me realize how close I am to leaving work too. I only have two more weeks. It'll be weird next week when the put the new schedules up and my name won't be on there. I've been working at Barnes and Noble for a year and three months now. It's insane how fast that time has gone. It's had its goods, and more lately, its bads. But, I will miss all the crazy people I work with...Hannah, Beth, Gary, Alisha...They are all awesome.
I just got home from Nick's house and I realized tonight how short our remaining time together is before we head off to our respective colleges. I got really sad because I don't know what I will do without having him nearby. I've gotten so used to having him across the street, and being able to go see him whenever I want. And, it made me realize how fragile relationships really are. I mean, we both love each other, I know that, but what happens if he meets another girl, or I meet another guy? I don't know what is going to happen in the future...as much as I wish I did. I hate living with uncertainty and being left here to worry about all the "what ifs" and the "could bes". I guess I just need to trust him and trust myself. We are happy right now, and I guess that's all that matters right now. The future is the future, but I'm in the now, and I've got to remember to stop worrying about the future and live happily now.
God I really hate where my mind takes me sometimes....
But, with Aaron leaving, it makes me realize how close I am to leaving work too. I only have two more weeks. It'll be weird next week when the put the new schedules up and my name won't be on there. I've been working at Barnes and Noble for a year and three months now. It's insane how fast that time has gone. It's had its goods, and more lately, its bads. But, I will miss all the crazy people I work with...Hannah, Beth, Gary, Alisha...They are all awesome.
I just got home from Nick's house and I realized tonight how short our remaining time together is before we head off to our respective colleges. I got really sad because I don't know what I will do without having him nearby. I've gotten so used to having him across the street, and being able to go see him whenever I want. And, it made me realize how fragile relationships really are. I mean, we both love each other, I know that, but what happens if he meets another girl, or I meet another guy? I don't know what is going to happen in the future...as much as I wish I did. I hate living with uncertainty and being left here to worry about all the "what ifs" and the "could bes". I guess I just need to trust him and trust myself. We are happy right now, and I guess that's all that matters right now. The future is the future, but I'm in the now, and I've got to remember to stop worrying about the future and live happily now.
God I really hate where my mind takes me sometimes....