in which husband is locked as well as private.
& i have the type of presence that makes a lot of people angry for some reason. it would not help that i am loud and abrasive and a mirror (i lose myself sometimes) as well as very easily wounded by words and very, very paranoid about every relationship and instance with people i know. this journal goes more into what i really feel, since it's hard for me to voice how i feel, and even harder for me to put it in words. i am a lot of things, i am not a lot of things, and i am trying to find myself within all of this knowledge as well. right now i have been cut open deep and only want people who want to be around me. there is only so much i can take and bounce back from.