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shawn moved here one month less two days ago. we dated, and went through alot of shit in such short amount of time.
i told him i loved him and i meant it.
he broke up with me on friday and ive never been more miserable in my life, all for his ex girlfriend who cheated on him a million times and lies to him and treats him like shit, only to have her prolly do it again when/if he goes home.
i have spent close to $1000 on this boy.
i have compromised my sexuality for this boy, tho i am still a virgin.
i have opened my heart and home to a stranger who i fell in love with.
i more or less did things that compromised my status as an edge kid for this boy.
i stopped eating and i stopped sleeping.
i have done anything and everything for him and this is how it turns out?
i would continue to do random non-kayleigh type shit for him because i seroiusly do love him.
and im willing to do anything to keep him here and make him mine again.
i even stopped paying attention to brian morgante for him, cuz i dont want anyone else.
i keep spilling my heart out to him. ive never tried for anything in my life, and im trying so fucking hard for this. im not going to give up until i have him. and if he leaves, im going to be devastated. i wont be able to walk around my house knowing he's not here.
im going to die without him. im killing myself for this boy.
[Edit] and I forgot to mention....he lives with me, so I have to deal with this every fucking day. :(
i told him i loved him and i meant it.
he broke up with me on friday and ive never been more miserable in my life, all for his ex girlfriend who cheated on him a million times and lies to him and treats him like shit, only to have her prolly do it again when/if he goes home.
i have spent close to $1000 on this boy.
i have compromised my sexuality for this boy, tho i am still a virgin.
i have opened my heart and home to a stranger who i fell in love with.
i more or less did things that compromised my status as an edge kid for this boy.
i stopped eating and i stopped sleeping.
i have done anything and everything for him and this is how it turns out?
i would continue to do random non-kayleigh type shit for him because i seroiusly do love him.
and im willing to do anything to keep him here and make him mine again.
i even stopped paying attention to brian morgante for him, cuz i dont want anyone else.
i keep spilling my heart out to him. ive never tried for anything in my life, and im trying so fucking hard for this. im not going to give up until i have him. and if he leaves, im going to be devastated. i wont be able to walk around my house knowing he's not here.
im going to die without him. im killing myself for this boy.
[Edit] and I forgot to mention....he lives with me, so I have to deal with this every fucking day. :(