(no subject)
We held a memorial service for my mom yesterday. It was unbelievabley depressing. I couldn't stop the tears from rolling down my face over and over , hours on end. The doctors let us know how she passed on, and I really would like to keep it private. I would type it, but it's awful.
I love my boyfriend too. He's been nothing but supportive. I started packing today, and next week my family and I will be moving to New York because we have family there and we'd really enjoy spending time there. We're moving into some really nice apartment with an outlook of the city. I thank god everyday that we don't have money issues. I sound like I'm bragging, but I feel thankful to be "rich". I'm so spoiled.
Anyways, Brandon will be coming with me. His parents really don't mind him moving. He turned 18 on Friday, and we celebrated, but it was still hard with the death and all, so I rather not write about it either, but it was a blowout party at his house. Now that he's 18, he's free to roam where he wants, including New York... and for me? Wow, this is something special. That's for sure <3. I would love to marry him, but I'm just so young right now. Maybe once I'm 20? That's still very young, but I can not honestly see myself marrying anyone besides him. Thinking about myself and another man makes me sick.
I'm going to go to bed now, I'm tired. Hope everyone is doing well? Lol, even though I only have two friends on here. Courtney and Kayla. I would really like to make some " lj friends" but I don't quite have the time. I was applying for some communities also, and that's where I found some people, but I really feel like an internet loser. Lol, how incredibly stupid of me to say that.