"Sometimes I thank God, for unanswered prayers" ~Garth Brooks 'Unanswered Prayers'
So ya the last to entries for today I got outta someones journal that I found on the web. Anyway on to the stuff from life the past coupla days.
First, there was a Jimmy Buffett concert tonight in Tampa, but I missed it since the tickets sold out so damn fast.
Now on to the real stuff...
I have found that I think to much. No seriously human beings are capable of being to smart for there own good. That is not me being paranoid or cynical (although I am both often) but rather just stating fact.
Another thing I have found is that I should not spend as much time on the internet when there is nothing to do. Why you might ask, because then I start to think and as I stated before that is not a good thing.
Thinking is not a good thing since human beings cannot go out of their way to be random. Seriously although many people will think I am crazy for using this analogy, if you watched the first episode of NUMB3RS they had people randomly place themselves about a room. The only problem is that the human mind in the end cannot as there is always a pattern.
Anyway, if you think I am being vague, come and call me or ask me sometime as to how I found this out and I will tell you, however now my paranoid side won't post how I found this out on the web.
Off to other things, this time about love and my lack there of.
Dont believe me, suit yourself, but I no longer believe in love or in hope. There I feel is no point. Yes they may happen to other people, but not to me. Instead I am becoming more and more antisocial as I try to figure out who my actual friends are. Don't believe I am anti-social, ask some people who talk with me often and they will let you know. I now feel that I should just step up to the plate and accept the fact that I will become a permanant bachelor. Why you ask, well for the simple point of everyone I like either just plain doesn't like me, or doesn't like me that way. So my new plan is to go back to my life of only coming out into the world when I need too so as to spare the world from dealing with me too often. Cause in the end, it seems like the best things I do, I do from the shadows that no one looks into. Sure, it will mean I will be lucky if I keep any friends for long, if I even have friends. But most of the friends I need now anyway are not around and I don't get to talk to often enough to get the advice from the that would prove helpful. The people around me nowadays I cannot tell if they are my friends or not. So, I will keep my distance and see how things play out, I mean its not like the world will really notice me hiding again. AND NO I AM NOT OFF TO COMMIT SUICIDE for anyone that might think so. I am just gonna become an observer of the world around me. I will hide in my shadows and my little hole and try to help the world out with little things here and there. But in the end, I will just be in my hole unless I need to participate in the world which I am so conviced either hates me or if not that then at least passionately dislikes me.
Grrrrrrrrrrr, I wanna go run, but it is too late right now to do that so I guess I will try to get some sleep instead.
L8a Mon
Semper Fidelis
Matt 'The Parrothead'
PS, read and comment to the other to entries of today also if you can along with this one. THX IN ADVANCE.
First, there was a Jimmy Buffett concert tonight in Tampa, but I missed it since the tickets sold out so damn fast.
Now on to the real stuff...
I have found that I think to much. No seriously human beings are capable of being to smart for there own good. That is not me being paranoid or cynical (although I am both often) but rather just stating fact.
Another thing I have found is that I should not spend as much time on the internet when there is nothing to do. Why you might ask, because then I start to think and as I stated before that is not a good thing.
Thinking is not a good thing since human beings cannot go out of their way to be random. Seriously although many people will think I am crazy for using this analogy, if you watched the first episode of NUMB3RS they had people randomly place themselves about a room. The only problem is that the human mind in the end cannot as there is always a pattern.
Anyway, if you think I am being vague, come and call me or ask me sometime as to how I found this out and I will tell you, however now my paranoid side won't post how I found this out on the web.
Off to other things, this time about love and my lack there of.
Dont believe me, suit yourself, but I no longer believe in love or in hope. There I feel is no point. Yes they may happen to other people, but not to me. Instead I am becoming more and more antisocial as I try to figure out who my actual friends are. Don't believe I am anti-social, ask some people who talk with me often and they will let you know. I now feel that I should just step up to the plate and accept the fact that I will become a permanant bachelor. Why you ask, well for the simple point of everyone I like either just plain doesn't like me, or doesn't like me that way. So my new plan is to go back to my life of only coming out into the world when I need too so as to spare the world from dealing with me too often. Cause in the end, it seems like the best things I do, I do from the shadows that no one looks into. Sure, it will mean I will be lucky if I keep any friends for long, if I even have friends. But most of the friends I need now anyway are not around and I don't get to talk to often enough to get the advice from the that would prove helpful. The people around me nowadays I cannot tell if they are my friends or not. So, I will keep my distance and see how things play out, I mean its not like the world will really notice me hiding again. AND NO I AM NOT OFF TO COMMIT SUICIDE for anyone that might think so. I am just gonna become an observer of the world around me. I will hide in my shadows and my little hole and try to help the world out with little things here and there. But in the end, I will just be in my hole unless I need to participate in the world which I am so conviced either hates me or if not that then at least passionately dislikes me.
Grrrrrrrrrrr, I wanna go run, but it is too late right now to do that so I guess I will try to get some sleep instead.
L8a Mon
Semper Fidelis
Matt 'The Parrothead'
PS, read and comment to the other to entries of today also if you can along with this one. THX IN ADVANCE.