leaving this one open.

[hurricaneoflove]

Now that I'm calmer, past the shock, past the out-rage, past asking the questions, I can finally update with something of substance. Not necessarily of real life, but roleplay these days is an extension of how I'm feeling in reality, so it's so difficult to address

Comments

[caersidi]

I so appreciate what you have written here. Although I wasn't a great fan of Heath's I did admire him as an actor and was shaken by his death.

Having been a part of the same RP for so long, my thoughts also went to you because I knew how deeply you played both he and Orlando and could not imagine how this must be effecting you and Robin both as well as the community as a whole.

My inner Kirsten, who had been dormant for a while, woke up and was feeling her own grief for the loss of her friend and what Julia was going through. At that point I so regreted leaving because she wanted to be there for Julia and others, including Orlando (knowing ooc you played both). Still what's done is done and I am glad at least I could comment here.

I'm sorry to hear the reaction of some people, grief is not something I think all can cope with but a good writer knows these things don't vanish quickly. The reality of the game and the authenticity that you and others bring to it is important and if a few folk need to be shaken up, so be it.

[hurricaneoflove]

I think what shakes me is that people are always talking about how little reality there is in roleplay, how so few people follow real life events. I didn't see any other way to handle this as it shocked not only us, but everyone else. I can understand people not wanting to be reminded all the time, but in game, there was no one closer to Heath than Julia, so it is natural that she among all others be given the right to mention him as often or as little as she feels necessary - especially without being harrassed by fellow members anonymously.

I'm glad you enjoyed this and can at least appreciate what we're trying to do. Your Kiki is greatly missed.

[caersidi]

My goodness, of course Julia needs to be free to express her grief. I logged on as Kirsten the other day and as she hadn't unfriended me got so tearful at her entry as well as the memorial notice you'd posted.

I do appreciate what you are trying to do and support it.

You've touched me deeply with what you've said about my Kiki. I guess I felt she'd become such a ghost in the game it was time to leave. :( Now I wish she was able to be there for her close friends.

[hurricaneoflove]

It's so heartbreaking. Julia wrote Heath a private post today, a final goodbye and I had to read it in pieces because it was just so hard to keep from just sobbing. It's so sad. It's hard not to cross the IC/OOC line in this case. I don't know whose emotions I am acting on and it's scary.

[caersidi]

Is that the one she wrote also to her private journal. I was on AIM with her this afternoon when she posted it and my eyes filled with tears.

Anyway, I've come back to the community and given you're on the West Coast we can always IM in the mornings (for me).

That is a brilliant icon by the way.

[hurricaneoflove]

I'm on the east coast! I know my time is off on this journal, I just haven't fixed it. But didn't it? I had to stop, wipe my eyes, get myself together then continue. She's very brave for playing Julia on through this. It was a hard decision but it's too hard to let go of a line that meant so very much to the both of us.

And thank you! I didn't make it, I got it from inmemoryofheath.

[caersidi]

She is brave though I think it was the right decision to make because the SL meant so much and this is a way to honour it.

How could I get your coast mixed up! We shall talk soon I am sure.

[eireangel560]

Gotta second. I miss Kiki.