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this weekend had some serious ups and downs. but thankfully after all the shit, much of it was all resolved. although its gonna be slightly different for awhile, im gonnd deal with it and suck it up, and just look towards teh future and when things will be all back to normal and amazing again, because i know they will.
im still pretty pissed that someone actually tried this shit over the weekend and i think for a good bit before. its so fuckin sickening to me, to think that someone would have the fuckin balls to pull that kinda shit. especially while going around speaking how close they are with whomever. it pisses me off, but at teh same time i dont give a shit b/c im fuckin done with that shit. i'm never letting what i hear or antyhign like that affect anything unless i hear it from the one person who matters most.
i have a serious problem i also need to work on within myself. its gonna be extremely hard for me, but i know that what im gonna gain from gettin through this is worth more than anything else to me and thats all that really matters to me. its a mental battle i need to take on and i know it'll be fine b/c i wont have it any other way. part of me wishes this weekend never happened. I wouldnt have made some great new friends but things mayeb would be completely different. but then i wonder maybe this is good that this is happening now, we have time to settle our minds and let things work themselves out and when we're together again it'll be just like how things were and this will become just a minor bump in the road we've been through. life needs adversity in it, i'm hoping this situation is gonne bring us a lot closer. she's my best friend and i cant lose her. and i cant wait to be able to say that im with her again.
im still pretty pissed that someone actually tried this shit over the weekend and i think for a good bit before. its so fuckin sickening to me, to think that someone would have the fuckin balls to pull that kinda shit. especially while going around speaking how close they are with whomever. it pisses me off, but at teh same time i dont give a shit b/c im fuckin done with that shit. i'm never letting what i hear or antyhign like that affect anything unless i hear it from the one person who matters most.
i have a serious problem i also need to work on within myself. its gonna be extremely hard for me, but i know that what im gonna gain from gettin through this is worth more than anything else to me and thats all that really matters to me. its a mental battle i need to take on and i know it'll be fine b/c i wont have it any other way. part of me wishes this weekend never happened. I wouldnt have made some great new friends but things mayeb would be completely different. but then i wonder maybe this is good that this is happening now, we have time to settle our minds and let things work themselves out and when we're together again it'll be just like how things were and this will become just a minor bump in the road we've been through. life needs adversity in it, i'm hoping this situation is gonne bring us a lot closer. she's my best friend and i cant lose her. and i cant wait to be able to say that im with her again.