I seriously had just finished listening to the song that those lyrics are from on the icon right before I read your entry. That is so weird, seeing I just downloaded that song when I got home from school today. haha
whatevernephilim_sxeSeptember 28 2004, 22:43:42 UTC
meghan you need to think. you try so hard to be different.(ie wearing unmatching socks on purpose,wearing the same earrings in one ear,painting one hand blue and the other orange) i mean, cmon,you're better than that.that makes you look so pathetic.everyone realizes you're not like that.you dont have to advertise your so called "depression".everyone i have talked to about this, knows its for attention,but no one wants to say it.you keep brinhing up things that have been done with for years.its time to move on.find closure.stop trying to fit in and/or be different.its not the cool thing to do.be yourself.just dont try too hard, everyone knows you do.you just need to grow up and realize being different,doesnt make you special.sometimes you need to conform to certain aspects of society.if not, you'll like a complete ass.i'm not saying its not ok to be different.but you have to be different naturally.not by trying to be different.you know it
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Re: whatevernephilim_sxeSeptember 29 2004, 23:23:08 UTC
well.if you say you dont care what people think, then why do you try so hard? if you wanna be yourself, fine. also, just cuz i'm not home alot anymore, seeing as though i have school,friends and a girlfriend,(some would call that a "life", not just coming home and updating my livejournal and talking on aim all night) doesnt mean i am "pushing anyone away".you obviously have no idea what that means.totally wrong context.i'm not the one pushing anyone away.you are.you know it.you're just denying it because you think everyone is against you and everyone is out to get you.thats not true at all.so by you pushing people away makes you think we're the ones not paying attention.when actually we are.you just wont let us do anything cuz you think that being "depressed" is the cool thing to do and you just want people to feel sorry for you.you think that our advice is worthless.you're so much better than everyone.but whatever.deny it all you want.we're right.again. nick
Re: whateverhurlygrl893September 30 2004, 18:18:06 UTC
I know I'm pushing people away. I know that already. I've never denyed it either. I know that no one is out to get, no one's against me. Nick, you're telling me stuff that I already know. I absolutely hate sympathy! Depression sucks, Nick, it really really does. I'm sorry, if I can't escape from the past when it's affected me so much and given me a reason to be depressed and all. I don't know what the hell you expect from me anymore?? What just hide everything, not talk to anyone, and let it all build up inside of me till I do something that I'll regret?? I'm not better than anyone else... and I know that. Yeah, so I have gone through hell and back again and survived it in some miraculous(sp?) way, but that gives me no reason to be better than anyone else.
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thanks.
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also, just cuz i'm not home alot anymore, seeing as though i have school,friends and a girlfriend,(some would call that a "life", not just coming home and updating my livejournal and talking on aim all night) doesnt mean i am "pushing anyone away".you obviously have no idea what that means.totally wrong context.i'm not the one pushing anyone away.you are.you know it.you're just denying it because you think everyone is against you and everyone is out to get you.thats not true at all.so by you pushing people away makes you think we're the ones not paying attention.when actually we are.you just wont let us do anything cuz you think that being "depressed" is the cool thing to do and you just want people to feel sorry for you.you think that our advice is worthless.you're so much better than everyone.but whatever.deny it all you want.we're right.again.
nick
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~Meghan~
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