i fucking hate you.
i hate how you think its okay to treat people the way you do i hate how i like you and can do nothing about it at all.i hate this feeling that i want something so bad and i know i could possibly never have it EVER.its so close to me but yet its so far away.i dont think ive ever felt such a guilt but yet at the same time i could care less.its actually quite selfish of me and yet its something i feel like i cant controll.the thought of you makes me sick and happy at the same time.i wish i could just change the world with my thoughts.i keep saying im satisfied with myself right now but honestly i dont think i really am.i want to get away and forget it all but its always right there in the front of my mind.