Old Stuff..
Poems, Revised:
Daniel: Love me too… 9-13/14-2004
You come home and break my heart..
Now your trying to play head games..
Don’t even start..
You say you want time..
So I will wait a while..
Slowly longer I go without a smile..
In place of a smile..
All anyone ever sees..
Is a frown..
Still I’m curious..
Do we have a future?
I’m sure if I ask you, you will just give me some more lies..
Lies about how..
You wanna be with me..
When you don’t..
If you wanted me..
Like you say you do..
We would be together..
One second you want me..
The next you don’t..
I’m not a fucking light switch..
Your so full of shit..
I wish you’d make up your mind..
If you realy cared like you say you do..
You wouldn’t lead me on..
Or leave me guessing..
If I wanted to hear more lies...
All I would have to do..
Is just ask you..
So what’s going on..
I wonder..
Are you just waiting for something better?
In the meantime..
Maybe I’ll get over you soon..
Maybe never!
All I know is that whenever I feel any better..
I find myself on the same path..
Accepting your lies as facts..
Still I don’t know what your looking for..
Maybe a slut..
Or maybe a whore..
I have always had trouble..
Trusting you with my heart..
So why am I so quick to believe your lies now?
You made me fall in love with you..
And then played me like a sick joke..
How could I fall like that?
Still I know..
No matter how hard I try..
I will always care for you..
Because I don’t know..
What the future looks like..
Or even if we will have one..
But when I do get the chance..
To talk to you..
I deserve the truth..
So for now..
Instead of convincing myself
That these things are not..
I will cry my last tears..
As I enter my hearts thoughts..
Into a tiny see-through box..
And there my thoughts will stay..
Completely hidden away..
Because I know..
I could have loved you too much..
And still, it wouldn’t have been enough..
And no matter how mad at you I want to be..
I still love you..
And my only hope is you love me too…!
Fuck the World: 2-3-04
Fuck the world
And all that’s in it
The fight and the lies
And all that comes with it
The never ending cycle
We can’t defeat it
All we seem to do
Is sit around
And repeat it
Winning is always loosing
Floating is always sinking
We never come out believing
We always leave doubting
Why push any harder
To fall flat on your face in pain
There is no success
You never find any gains
With all this pressure
Comes all this pain
When success becomes a distant battle
You loose everything again
Where will we turn
In the very end
Where will we go
When we realize we have no friends
Fuck the world
And all that’s in it
The fight and the lies
And all that comes with it
The never ending cycle
We can’t defeat it
All we seem to do
Is sit around
And repeat it
We can’t trust
So why try
If I got abandoned again
I think I might die
Do you even care: 1-29-2004
Here is a poem I have for you
But don’t take it completely to heart
In your bull-shit games I wont take part
I guarantee they will break us apart
Your games leave me guessing
And wondering if you give a fuck
Because I’m not really sure
If you do anymore
Do I make you guess
And leave you wondering
I don’t try to
But maybe I do
If so please tell me
Give your feelings a spill
Maybe your story will explain
Why your being such a pill
I think your full of shit
And I find all this really gay
I’ve written before a lot in this way
Why am I doing it again
All this is an example for you
Of all my unhappiness
Is there a reason
On you part
Why things are like this
These same problems keep occurring
And you just blow them off like they don’t even exist
Does how I feel even matter to you
I wish I could tell you my feelings to your face
If I tried though
I’m afraid you would leave
Your always like a bomb ready to go off
Still though I’m wondering though
If I should test my luck
And just give it a go
You do
Why shouldn’t I
I can see something new
It’s a look in your eye
It a stare
That lets me know
That you don’t care
You tend to be one sided
And rude.. its true
A lie
I would never try telling to you
Rarely though will I tell you
How I really feel
Because when I do you freak out
And I take all the blame
Because you place it on me
I don’t trust you
To be open and level minded
With me
Sometimes it feels like you just don’t care
You get what you want
And take advantage of whats there
now my question is: do you really even care?
Its not okay.. 1-24-2004
Sometimes it’s not okay
No matter what I say
Some things you just cant do
I would never really hurt you
I would say mean things or try to make you cry
You’ve done these things and I want to know why
Why would you yell and not expect me to cry
Or why would you hit me and expect me to be fine
It’s not okay
Some things leave marks that wont go away
They leave scars on my heart
A grudge for days
You want to blow it
Act like it’s no big deal
You even expect me to cover for you
Honestly, how could you think all this is okay
Why would you yell and not expect me to cry
Or why would you hit me and expect me to be fine
It’s not okay
Some things you do and some things you say aren’t okay
Why would someone who loves you test you
Or hurt your feelings out of anger
If you love me so much shouldn’t you be able to control your anger
Why would you yell and not expect me to cry
Or why would you hit me and expect me to be fine
It’s not okay
Bringing up ex-girlfriends and different girls you liked all the time
Is that necessary, if so why do it all the time
Do you still have feeling for them
Or just for me
Is it to test me
Just to see if it makes me jealous
Well it does
It would make you jealous too
Is this okay!
Why would you yell and not expect me to cry
Or why would you hit me and expect me to be fine
It’s not okay
If I treated you ½ of what you treated me
Would we still be together
Would you even stay with me
Why give my all
Just for you to take it all away
Please tell me so that I can understand
Is any of this okay?
Why would you yell and not expect me to cry
Or why would you hit me and expect me to be fine
It’s not okay
You have your excuses
Sometimes they match up
There are consequences
For each thing you say
I suggest you be more careful each day
Because now I’ve been hurt both mentally and physically
Is this okay
Will it ever be okay again?
Why would you yell and not expect me to cry
Or why would you hit me and expect me to be fine
It’s not okay
I’ll be more careful and guard my heart
Because my loves to strong to keep being torn apart
I don’t want to be without you
But you cant keep breaking my heart
Without you though
I’m afraid I’d fall apart
Still though I know
Each time you hurt me
I fall apart one more time
I won’t let you hurt my heart
Ever again
That’s one less time
Because I wont take it in the end
Why would you yell and not expect me to cry
Or why would you hit me and expect me to be fine
It’s not okay
Its not okay..
Will it ever be again…
Daniel: Love me too… 9-13/14-2004
You come home and break my heart..
Now your trying to play head games..
Don’t even start..
You say you want time..
So I will wait a while..
Slowly longer I go without a smile..
In place of a smile..
All anyone ever sees..
Is a frown..
Still I’m curious..
Do we have a future?
I’m sure if I ask you, you will just give me some more lies..
Lies about how..
You wanna be with me..
When you don’t..
If you wanted me..
Like you say you do..
We would be together..
One second you want me..
The next you don’t..
I’m not a fucking light switch..
Your so full of shit..
I wish you’d make up your mind..
If you realy cared like you say you do..
You wouldn’t lead me on..
Or leave me guessing..
If I wanted to hear more lies...
All I would have to do..
Is just ask you..
So what’s going on..
I wonder..
Are you just waiting for something better?
In the meantime..
Maybe I’ll get over you soon..
Maybe never!
All I know is that whenever I feel any better..
I find myself on the same path..
Accepting your lies as facts..
Still I don’t know what your looking for..
Maybe a slut..
Or maybe a whore..
I have always had trouble..
Trusting you with my heart..
So why am I so quick to believe your lies now?
You made me fall in love with you..
And then played me like a sick joke..
How could I fall like that?
Still I know..
No matter how hard I try..
I will always care for you..
Because I don’t know..
What the future looks like..
Or even if we will have one..
But when I do get the chance..
To talk to you..
I deserve the truth..
So for now..
Instead of convincing myself
That these things are not..
I will cry my last tears..
As I enter my hearts thoughts..
Into a tiny see-through box..
And there my thoughts will stay..
Completely hidden away..
Because I know..
I could have loved you too much..
And still, it wouldn’t have been enough..
And no matter how mad at you I want to be..
I still love you..
And my only hope is you love me too…!
Fuck the World: 2-3-04
Fuck the world
And all that’s in it
The fight and the lies
And all that comes with it
The never ending cycle
We can’t defeat it
All we seem to do
Is sit around
And repeat it
Winning is always loosing
Floating is always sinking
We never come out believing
We always leave doubting
Why push any harder
To fall flat on your face in pain
There is no success
You never find any gains
With all this pressure
Comes all this pain
When success becomes a distant battle
You loose everything again
Where will we turn
In the very end
Where will we go
When we realize we have no friends
Fuck the world
And all that’s in it
The fight and the lies
And all that comes with it
The never ending cycle
We can’t defeat it
All we seem to do
Is sit around
And repeat it
We can’t trust
So why try
If I got abandoned again
I think I might die
Do you even care: 1-29-2004
Here is a poem I have for you
But don’t take it completely to heart
In your bull-shit games I wont take part
I guarantee they will break us apart
Your games leave me guessing
And wondering if you give a fuck
Because I’m not really sure
If you do anymore
Do I make you guess
And leave you wondering
I don’t try to
But maybe I do
If so please tell me
Give your feelings a spill
Maybe your story will explain
Why your being such a pill
I think your full of shit
And I find all this really gay
I’ve written before a lot in this way
Why am I doing it again
All this is an example for you
Of all my unhappiness
Is there a reason
On you part
Why things are like this
These same problems keep occurring
And you just blow them off like they don’t even exist
Does how I feel even matter to you
I wish I could tell you my feelings to your face
If I tried though
I’m afraid you would leave
Your always like a bomb ready to go off
Still though I’m wondering though
If I should test my luck
And just give it a go
You do
Why shouldn’t I
I can see something new
It’s a look in your eye
It a stare
That lets me know
That you don’t care
You tend to be one sided
And rude.. its true
A lie
I would never try telling to you
Rarely though will I tell you
How I really feel
Because when I do you freak out
And I take all the blame
Because you place it on me
I don’t trust you
To be open and level minded
With me
Sometimes it feels like you just don’t care
You get what you want
And take advantage of whats there
now my question is: do you really even care?
Its not okay.. 1-24-2004
Sometimes it’s not okay
No matter what I say
Some things you just cant do
I would never really hurt you
I would say mean things or try to make you cry
You’ve done these things and I want to know why
Why would you yell and not expect me to cry
Or why would you hit me and expect me to be fine
It’s not okay
Some things leave marks that wont go away
They leave scars on my heart
A grudge for days
You want to blow it
Act like it’s no big deal
You even expect me to cover for you
Honestly, how could you think all this is okay
Why would you yell and not expect me to cry
Or why would you hit me and expect me to be fine
It’s not okay
Some things you do and some things you say aren’t okay
Why would someone who loves you test you
Or hurt your feelings out of anger
If you love me so much shouldn’t you be able to control your anger
Why would you yell and not expect me to cry
Or why would you hit me and expect me to be fine
It’s not okay
Bringing up ex-girlfriends and different girls you liked all the time
Is that necessary, if so why do it all the time
Do you still have feeling for them
Or just for me
Is it to test me
Just to see if it makes me jealous
Well it does
It would make you jealous too
Is this okay!
Why would you yell and not expect me to cry
Or why would you hit me and expect me to be fine
It’s not okay
If I treated you ½ of what you treated me
Would we still be together
Would you even stay with me
Why give my all
Just for you to take it all away
Please tell me so that I can understand
Is any of this okay?
Why would you yell and not expect me to cry
Or why would you hit me and expect me to be fine
It’s not okay
You have your excuses
Sometimes they match up
There are consequences
For each thing you say
I suggest you be more careful each day
Because now I’ve been hurt both mentally and physically
Is this okay
Will it ever be okay again?
Why would you yell and not expect me to cry
Or why would you hit me and expect me to be fine
It’s not okay
I’ll be more careful and guard my heart
Because my loves to strong to keep being torn apart
I don’t want to be without you
But you cant keep breaking my heart
Without you though
I’m afraid I’d fall apart
Still though I know
Each time you hurt me
I fall apart one more time
I won’t let you hurt my heart
Ever again
That’s one less time
Because I wont take it in the end
Why would you yell and not expect me to cry
Or why would you hit me and expect me to be fine
It’s not okay
Its not okay..
Will it ever be again…