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Chris and I are on a break and it's weird but i need him to know i'm the best he's ever going to have which sounds conceited but...I mean everything is kinda messy and i'm not even really sure what happened we definitely did not argue it is on good terms yeah...i dunno it's just weird well he' 18 and we've been together for a year and 8 months and he just graduated high school.....so there's all that life out there to figure out and I don't want him to regret anything later and I want him to know that I love him and we talked about it a lot and i want to be mad and harsh and I am a little i'm hurt but i think...actually i'm pretty sure we'll get back together and he loves me more than a sister and i'm his best friend and I don't understand why he doesn't know if i'm the one is it because it would be scary and ludicrous to find the one so young? but we have the same to similar values, goals, ideals, joys and woes and everything.
He hasn't been 100% here and I give a lot to this relationship....so I can't really handle someone who isn't there right beside me and he's been so distant lately and yet we're closer than ever....which makes no sense.
I feel a littlelotabit empty and could really use some support. I'm pretty sure it won't last the month we gave it but....maybe it should....i'm all over right now. Really glad i don't have to work tomorrow....anyone....want to do something tomorrow?
He hasn't been 100% here and I give a lot to this relationship....so I can't really handle someone who isn't there right beside me and he's been so distant lately and yet we're closer than ever....which makes no sense.
I feel a littlelotabit empty and could really use some support. I'm pretty sure it won't last the month we gave it but....maybe it should....i'm all over right now. Really glad i don't have to work tomorrow....anyone....want to do something tomorrow?