Just update'n the journal
Well, im working weekend duty with the one person in my shop that i cant stand but its not that bad. He is in one office and im in the other so we dont have to talk to much right now. However if we have to go work on the jet that will change. But its not that bad either way. You have to find the good part of everything or else your going to live a misserable life. My sweetness is coming to see me this week which is AWESOME. She is just so great. I cant wait spend the rest of my life with her. Everything else is going pretty well. Im tired of ppl back home making her upset and not being able to do anything about it right now. I wish more then anything that i could move her down her today but i just cant get out of the dorms right now b/c i dont have enough stripes and i really cant afford it right now either. It will all work out in the end and we will be together and starting a new life with each other. I know you guys are sick of hearing about how wonderful all that is so i'll stop before someone gets sick. On second thought, no i want im sorry if our love for each other might make some one sick or mad or upset. Its something we both have for each other and something we like to share with everyone. Ask the guys around here, they hear about her all the time as well with the ppl she works with and hangs out with. My sister is doing okay, i guess. I havent talked to her much in the past few weeks. I dont get her anymore. Well, actually i do. She is simply following the money. When bry is broke, sam isnt happy. When bry has money and buying trips to exotic places, she wants to be with him. I, personally, just wish she would drop him, get an appartment and start getting her life back together like it was before she met him. Yes she dance before she met him and all but she was one of those girls that didnt look like a dancer or act like a dancer. Now she has the fake boobs, LOVES making the quick buck, and has that dancer look to her. I just wish she would go back to the sam i knew and looked up to when we were in HS and just after HS. I really wish she would get out of that damn club scene she is in and the ppl in it. Dont get me wrong, I love my sister. I just wish she would get her life back on track and get her education so she doesnt end up like my mom or dad. In her 40's going to school or dieing from the life style she chose. My dad is doing better (in case you didnt know he had a relaps and wrecked his bike). He went to the doc the other day and they told him the liver problem hasnt gotten any worst and his injuries from the wreck are healing well. He got out of my sister's house and got a lil studio appartment for himself. The bike is getting fixed and probably going to be sold. My uncle and his family are doing well from their accident. I leave for desert again around Nov. 1 and will be gone through around March 20. I hope we leave around the end of Oct though b/c that means i get oct. tax free and all too. That will help out alot. I like going over there b/c it gives me time to just workout and eat right and the pay is good. But i dont like being that far from Ashley, my friends and family and last but not least my truck. Yes i know that last one sounds like I am a materialistic person but im not. I've just waited so long to have a nice truck like that one and have it jacked up like i have it. Its one of those dreams i've always had that has come true for me. Along with a couple others that have come true here recently :). Wow that was scary. I saw the like line under that box that tells ya about "rich text" and clicked it. The screen changed and all that i typed was gone. I was about to freak out. Thank God for the back button. It really bothers me that i cant dance. Like i can slow dance and im pretty sure i do the whole "ballroom" dancing stuff for the wedding. But i just dont have the rythme to do like todays style dancing and that bothers me b/c i know that Ashley likes or maybe loves to dance and there will be dancing at the wedding and i cant really get out there with her and enjoy that part of the whole expierance. Like i know she has told me "aww, you're really not that bad, sweetie" but i know i am. And i know my sister has said the same things when she pulls me out on the dance floor at clubs but ive done the same moves I was doing in the club buzzed/drunk in front of a mirror sober and it looks horrible. I dont know, it just bothers me. Work right now sucks. Our work load has increased since we came over to AMXS. A lot of ppl say its b/c we have less ppl now but thats not true, the work load has increased by at least double. I remember riding launch from the Ops bar up stairs and watching movies and stuff before i went to the desert. Now we barely get time to check our email or eat lunch. It just seems like swing shift is doing to the most and hardest work. I mean days is out of here on time or early everyday, i know mids gets out of here on time every morning but we always get out of here late by at least an hour. The past two weeks, we have worked no less then 12 hour days all week. I think we got out early one time last week and that was only b/c CAMS was down. We are getting worn out and tired of it. On a good note, since we moved over here, we are getting treated a lot better. I am happy to say "Yes, I am a Dagger Dawg" now. Ight, now that ive written a book im getting off here and looking up honeymoon trips for Beautiful and me. LATA