Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same
Cant sleep, yes its 11:15 but theres nothing else to do. Ive got sooo much on my mind right now that i dont know whats going on. I havent done anything this break, well elizabeth and becca and i saw a movie on saturday, but ya know what i mean. i just sit at home, cleaning or go out driving. Life right now is so confusing, last year at this time, i had EVERYTHING figured out, and now, i dont know. Im not sure where ill be going to school fall 07, im not even sure if ill get my BSN like I planned. I got a C in Bio. an F in the lab, and my gpa is now 2.925 or something of that sort. I will not be going to uncc in the fall, thats for sure. The essays will not help me one bit, trust me. I think they do that on the app, so everyone thinks they have a chance, but really they only look at the grades, i mean whos going to read all of the applicants 2-3 essays? John? martha? yeah okay. I applied to CCHS (cabarrus college of health science) There I will be able to get my ADN and then i can go back later and get the BSN. So what im thinkin is a ADN from there, or queens or CMC or whereever the hell will accept me, and then a BSN from Carolina. I can do that online too. All I know is that nursing is the only option for me. Thats all i want to do, thats all I know to do. I cant just up and change, not after spending all four years in high school doing medical related shit and going to college for two years to become a nurse. I just cant. What gets me the most is that Im always hearing, if i can do it why cant you, or Im disappointed in your grades, that class wasnt hard for me. My mom, the one who originally told me to just work hard, WHICH I DID, is now telling me that retakin anatomy lab is unacceptable. WTF? it just bugs me. I am tryin so hard, but i guess she doesnt see that. I know you prolly dont when you look at my grades. I am more hands on. Nothing seems to be going right with everything i had planned. I need stability, if that makes any sense at all. I guess thats my ranting and raving for now...
Losing hope is easy
When your only friend is gone
And every time you look around
Well, it all, it all just seems to change
But hanging on is easy
When you've got a friend to call
When nothings making sense at all
You're not the only one that's afraid of change
Losing hope is easy
When your only friend is gone
And every time you look around
Well, it all, it all just seems to change
But hanging on is easy
When you've got a friend to call
When nothings making sense at all
You're not the only one that's afraid of change