expectations
I really set high expectations for myself and others and then am extremely upset when they are not met. The other person has no idea that i have set these expectations so there is no way I can go to them and say hey you didn't do this or that. It really is hard be a stay at home mom. I wish that it were easier. There is always so much to be done and never enough time to do it all in. I am always thinking to myself I will get a few minutes when Hunt goes to bed but then there is so much that still needs to get done. I never get in bed at the time I have set for myself. I just wish there was a way to get somethings finished others almost finished. I need a since of accomplishment.
Well tonight I went to my Mary Kay meeting. It was good to get away from the house for a couple of hours without my kid. I really wish I were doing better in my business. I always have an excuse as to why things are not happening, but the real reason they are not happening is because I am scared. I am scared of making a mistake or actually be good at it. But the other part of me says don't be stupid you need money and this is a great way to make it. I need to stop running from my fear and bite the bear in the on the nose. I just need to face my fear. I can do this. I was scared to death of being a mom and yet I somehow muster up the strength to do it every day. With all the mistakes I have made along the way it is amazing no one has taken the kid from me.
What is wrong with me? What am I so afraid of? God help. I just don't no where to begin with my life. I really wish I could start over, but since I can't I must start doing better from this point out.
I can do this. I can do this. This is my life. I must get control of it. I can do this.
Well tonight I went to my Mary Kay meeting. It was good to get away from the house for a couple of hours without my kid. I really wish I were doing better in my business. I always have an excuse as to why things are not happening, but the real reason they are not happening is because I am scared. I am scared of making a mistake or actually be good at it. But the other part of me says don't be stupid you need money and this is a great way to make it. I need to stop running from my fear and bite the bear in the on the nose. I just need to face my fear. I can do this. I was scared to death of being a mom and yet I somehow muster up the strength to do it every day. With all the mistakes I have made along the way it is amazing no one has taken the kid from me.
What is wrong with me? What am I so afraid of? God help. I just don't no where to begin with my life. I really wish I could start over, but since I can't I must start doing better from this point out.
I can do this. I can do this. This is my life. I must get control of it. I can do this.