#19: Cheating.
"Have you ever been cheated on? Done the cheating? Whether cheating on a test in high school or a relationship, write about cheating and it's effect."
Elite Muses
SPOILERS up to 2x04 "Children Shouldn't Play With Dead Things".
I've cheated all my life. As soon as my handwriting was good enough to pass as an adult, I started filling in credit card application forms with fake names, fake everything - filling out fake life after fake life.
But I've never cheated on a test. Why would you if you could always do it without cheating and do better? Why risk getting caught?
I've never cheated on a girl. My first long term relationship was my only - and, regardless of what that woman in white wanted, I never cheated on her. Before Jessica, I'd never stayed in one place long enough to have a relationship.
But, you know, I'm cheating right now. It's not that kind of cheating but it's cheating all the same.
I'm cheating fate.
I should…I don't know. I shouldn't be here, not like this: mother dead, father dead and Dean….
Whatever the demon's plans were, they were for me. Mom…if she hadn't gone into the nursery that night…maybe she'd still be alive. And they would have been a family - and probably moved on, had a life, had jobs.
I was only six months old.
And then Jess…maybe if I hadn't gone with Dean, it'd have come for me then. And she'd be alive - and Dean and Dad would still be okay. They'd hunt that son of a bitch down.
Just…every time it's come for me, someone has died - paid the price for my freedom. Sometimes I just wonder…if I hadn't been pulled from the fire, both literal and not so literal, each and every time…I wonder…would Mom and Dad still be alive - and would they have been able to do a better job of keeping Dean from tail spinning.
So, I guess that my whole life, every day since I turned six months old, has been a form of cheating all in itself.
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Muse: Sam Winchester
Fandom: Supernatural
Word Count: 307
Elite Muses
SPOILERS up to 2x04 "Children Shouldn't Play With Dead Things".
I've cheated all my life. As soon as my handwriting was good enough to pass as an adult, I started filling in credit card application forms with fake names, fake everything - filling out fake life after fake life.
But I've never cheated on a test. Why would you if you could always do it without cheating and do better? Why risk getting caught?
I've never cheated on a girl. My first long term relationship was my only - and, regardless of what that woman in white wanted, I never cheated on her. Before Jessica, I'd never stayed in one place long enough to have a relationship.
But, you know, I'm cheating right now. It's not that kind of cheating but it's cheating all the same.
I'm cheating fate.
I should…I don't know. I shouldn't be here, not like this: mother dead, father dead and Dean….
Whatever the demon's plans were, they were for me. Mom…if she hadn't gone into the nursery that night…maybe she'd still be alive. And they would have been a family - and probably moved on, had a life, had jobs.
I was only six months old.
And then Jess…maybe if I hadn't gone with Dean, it'd have come for me then. And she'd be alive - and Dean and Dad would still be okay. They'd hunt that son of a bitch down.
Just…every time it's come for me, someone has died - paid the price for my freedom. Sometimes I just wonder…if I hadn't been pulled from the fire, both literal and not so literal, each and every time…I wonder…would Mom and Dad still be alive - and would they have been able to do a better job of keeping Dean from tail spinning.
So, I guess that my whole life, every day since I turned six months old, has been a form of cheating all in itself.
~
Muse: Sam Winchester
Fandom: Supernatural
Word Count: 307