October 005: What was the most difficult decision you've ever had to make?
"What was the most difficult decision you've ever had to make?"
Creative Muses
SPOILERS for 2x01 "In My Time of Dying".
Standing there, finger curled around the trigger, gun pointed downwards - Dad begging me to finish it. Pleading with me to pull that trigger.
To finish it.
And then there was Dean, voice soft and almost silent compared to Dad's shouts. Dean, voice strained and broken, pleading with me - compared to Dad's desperate orders.
In the body of my father was the one thing we'd spent our lives hunting, was the thing that had become the symbol of everything I hated - that had taken away the chance for us to have a life, a home - to have happiness. Inside Dad's body was the thing that had taunted and tormented us for so many years.
It had killed Mom. It had killed Jess.
And it was right there, inside Dad. Right there.
It had almost killed Dean.
My hand tightened on the gun at the very thought that with one bullet, I could finish it. I could get my revenge - our revenge.
For Mom.
For Jess.
For Dad.
Sam, don't you do it. Don't you do it.
But there was Dean.
You both can't wait to sacrifice yourself for this thing. But you know what? I'm gonna be the one to bury you. You're selfish, you know that? You don't care about anything but revenge.
I lowered the gun and the Demon let my father go.
But, sitting by Dean's beside, looking at Dean's still form, Dad's words ringing in my ears (if you'd shot the thing when you'd had the chance, your brother would be awake), I couldn't help but wonder if he'd been right.
If I shouldn't have just ended it when I had the chance.
And then…Dad…and I suppose, it didn't matter. It doesn't matter.
Even though it does.
Dad's gone anyway - but, at least, if I'd pulled the trigger, the Demon would be gone and Dad would have known we'd got our revenge. And Dean wouldn't have….
That night, standing there, finger curled around the trigger of the gun pointing at my father, I made the most difficult decision of my life. It was difficult to make at the time - and it's even more difficult to think back to it.
Because I'm always going to wonder if I did the right thing.
~
Muse: Sam Winchester
Fandom: Supernatural
Word Count: 374
Creative Muses
SPOILERS for 2x01 "In My Time of Dying".
Standing there, finger curled around the trigger, gun pointed downwards - Dad begging me to finish it. Pleading with me to pull that trigger.
To finish it.
And then there was Dean, voice soft and almost silent compared to Dad's shouts. Dean, voice strained and broken, pleading with me - compared to Dad's desperate orders.
In the body of my father was the one thing we'd spent our lives hunting, was the thing that had become the symbol of everything I hated - that had taken away the chance for us to have a life, a home - to have happiness. Inside Dad's body was the thing that had taunted and tormented us for so many years.
It had killed Mom. It had killed Jess.
And it was right there, inside Dad. Right there.
It had almost killed Dean.
My hand tightened on the gun at the very thought that with one bullet, I could finish it. I could get my revenge - our revenge.
For Mom.
For Jess.
For Dad.
Sam, don't you do it. Don't you do it.
But there was Dean.
You both can't wait to sacrifice yourself for this thing. But you know what? I'm gonna be the one to bury you. You're selfish, you know that? You don't care about anything but revenge.
I lowered the gun and the Demon let my father go.
But, sitting by Dean's beside, looking at Dean's still form, Dad's words ringing in my ears (if you'd shot the thing when you'd had the chance, your brother would be awake), I couldn't help but wonder if he'd been right.
If I shouldn't have just ended it when I had the chance.
And then…Dad…and I suppose, it didn't matter. It doesn't matter.
Even though it does.
Dad's gone anyway - but, at least, if I'd pulled the trigger, the Demon would be gone and Dad would have known we'd got our revenge. And Dean wouldn't have….
That night, standing there, finger curled around the trigger of the gun pointing at my father, I made the most difficult decision of my life. It was difficult to make at the time - and it's even more difficult to think back to it.
Because I'm always going to wonder if I did the right thing.
~
Muse: Sam Winchester
Fandom: Supernatural
Word Count: 374