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[hunterjakel]

Ok I really don't know what is going on anymore, it seems that everytime that we take a step toward working thing sout between us, we fall backwards into more problems that need to be resolved. I am really sick of this, I feel like crap everyday, my emotions are screwed up I sit here staring blankly not knowing what really to do. I'm on my way to losing my best friend that I have known for like 8 years and I really dont know what to do. I am so conflicted with feelings of frustration, sorrow, and confusion. I miss how things used to be, I miss everyone being able to hang out together with no conflict at all, we all used to have fun and now its just cut-throat every second.

I want things to be worked out, I wish things were back to normal, I wish Jared would get help, I miss the way he used to be.

Jared is my best friend, and I love Katie with all my heart but now I am torn between two people that I care very much for and I am just utterly confused about the entire situation. I think that I am getting sick from the stress of this situation, I need help. I need a therapist to talk this out with I need to get my problems off my chest but I don't want to burden anyone ... I don't know ... Now I'm just rambling on ...

I have got to get to bed, I have to work tomorrow. Hopefully in about a month I will have my medical insurance and I can go to therapy and get some help.

If anyone can help me, please do...