Locke and Liminality
Before I get to the real gist of my entry, let me add this to Knight: if you couldn't tell already, after I thought of the name Alastor for my DnD character, that was when I decided to model his physcial appearance, and yes, that is based on Dante from Devil May Cry. Also, I am determinded to get to level 30 in FFXI. Samurai and Corsair shall be mine. Besides, I can't let Autum beat me.......did I say that outloud? Teehee ^^ By the way, I finally think I'm getting over it...almost...(yes! no offense though)
So on tuesday I had an insanely happy and soul-warming/searching day. Me and Parker went out to eat and discussed life. Apparently I'm an old man. My name does add that tone I suppose, but I didn't expect that. He said it almost as though it was a compliment. I'm still trying to read into that. So then we run into Aaron at the Game Parlor......literally.....as in with my car.......and so we wandered the store to buy pieces and exchange Aaron's Oblivion at EB. The best discussions happened after we dropped off Aaron, which was when we discussed life in general and our futures. It made me reflect on my life and feel good about myself, which really set my mood perfectly for today. I think (and coincidently Parker said virtually the same) that this will be the only year in which I actually give a damn that people sign my yearbook. Next year MIGHT, but this year really sums up the best of my life so far. A real transition into myself. I like that. From Chip to Frank to Kyoji to the ultimate: Dusk. I like that name. It suits me well upon close examination. My essay on Liminality explains it better for those who wish to take the time to read it. I think I'll send that to colleges. Liminality does represent me well. And now for a real mood enhancer...
I got an award for my "achievements in Philosophy." This is the first award or even positive recognition from the school I've ever gotten, so that was a big deal for me. I like how many people called my name from the crowd. I'm really not used to that. I mean, it wasn't even the common thing at THAT assembly, and yet there must have been at least 7-10 people that called my name when I walked up to take my "award" (a cheesy piece of paper that said "Good Job, sorta!"). I couldn't help but smile when Taylor did, because he used his usual Taylor-ness and it made me laugh. It's so surreal, because I'm usually the cynical critic of people that disturb those kinds of cermonies, but I take it all back now. It really does make you feel good to hear that recognition from real people. That was worth a hell of a lot more than that piece of paper. Then I go back to class (coincidently it WAS philosophy) and we discuss what our final will be. Yeah...Penton is that cool teacher that doesn't even bother making a real final, so he asks us for ideas. It actually works, because we thought of a lot of ideas that would actually make us think, as opposed to some silly standardized test. The one I think we decided on was kind of redundant, because we basically spent the rest of the period doing it: labeling who in our class most represent each character in Lost. It was really fun, but what really warmed my heart was when they said who I was most like. I was expecting Charlie (the geeky drug addict) or Hurly (the hippie who gets along with everyone) but no. They said I was most like Locke (the TRULY philosophical one in the show, who also has many badass streaks and is truly a cool character. If you watch the show you know what I mean, he's the guy with the scar along his eye and is bald.) I double-checked their expressions and they WERN'T sarcastic, they were serious. That made me so happy that I've become such a cool person, and I didn't even realize it. It's so much easier to feel good about yourself when you see how well people acutally think of you. That makes me so happy.
So on tuesday I had an insanely happy and soul-warming/searching day. Me and Parker went out to eat and discussed life. Apparently I'm an old man. My name does add that tone I suppose, but I didn't expect that. He said it almost as though it was a compliment. I'm still trying to read into that. So then we run into Aaron at the Game Parlor......literally.....as in with my car.......and so we wandered the store to buy pieces and exchange Aaron's Oblivion at EB. The best discussions happened after we dropped off Aaron, which was when we discussed life in general and our futures. It made me reflect on my life and feel good about myself, which really set my mood perfectly for today. I think (and coincidently Parker said virtually the same) that this will be the only year in which I actually give a damn that people sign my yearbook. Next year MIGHT, but this year really sums up the best of my life so far. A real transition into myself. I like that. From Chip to Frank to Kyoji to the ultimate: Dusk. I like that name. It suits me well upon close examination. My essay on Liminality explains it better for those who wish to take the time to read it. I think I'll send that to colleges. Liminality does represent me well. And now for a real mood enhancer...
I got an award for my "achievements in Philosophy." This is the first award or even positive recognition from the school I've ever gotten, so that was a big deal for me. I like how many people called my name from the crowd. I'm really not used to that. I mean, it wasn't even the common thing at THAT assembly, and yet there must have been at least 7-10 people that called my name when I walked up to take my "award" (a cheesy piece of paper that said "Good Job, sorta!"). I couldn't help but smile when Taylor did, because he used his usual Taylor-ness and it made me laugh. It's so surreal, because I'm usually the cynical critic of people that disturb those kinds of cermonies, but I take it all back now. It really does make you feel good to hear that recognition from real people. That was worth a hell of a lot more than that piece of paper. Then I go back to class (coincidently it WAS philosophy) and we discuss what our final will be. Yeah...Penton is that cool teacher that doesn't even bother making a real final, so he asks us for ideas. It actually works, because we thought of a lot of ideas that would actually make us think, as opposed to some silly standardized test. The one I think we decided on was kind of redundant, because we basically spent the rest of the period doing it: labeling who in our class most represent each character in Lost. It was really fun, but what really warmed my heart was when they said who I was most like. I was expecting Charlie (the geeky drug addict) or Hurly (the hippie who gets along with everyone) but no. They said I was most like Locke (the TRULY philosophical one in the show, who also has many badass streaks and is truly a cool character. If you watch the show you know what I mean, he's the guy with the scar along his eye and is bald.) I double-checked their expressions and they WERN'T sarcastic, they were serious. That made me so happy that I've become such a cool person, and I didn't even realize it. It's so much easier to feel good about yourself when you see how well people acutally think of you. That makes me so happy.