still no sleep
yeah so last night i didnt go to bed again....then i tried to and i got about 1/2 hour of sleep..and that made me lat to school...(meaing i went to bed at 8 15 or sumthing and got up at 8 50 but otherwise i sat in my bed playing my guitar...tho it is giving me good practice on it! and i was tlaking to whitney and lynn last night and we are gunn ahve our first band practice on friday!! whoo hoo! and i gotta bring my mic and crap and as well my guitar...becuzz i gott show whitney sum coolio stuff on it and i might be able to get a couple songs on my guitar as well as singing...and hten maybe one day become a band with 2 guitars in it. and im not shy at singing in frunta em(im gunna have to get useda it if im gunna be in a band wiht em) jsut they havnt heard me but oh well. we are all really excited!! haha well last night jason told me he likes me. and yea hes a really nice boy and i could see myself liking him but i jsut met him on friday and i barely know him..jsut that our family feuds and depressions are for the same reason...and i am liek in love with mike. this is liek one of those things where i like him...or start to venture in liking him but not wanting to do anything about it....becuzz i dont knwo how mike feels....last time i knew he liked me started to liek my friend...but still relaly liked me...and wanted me to be "the one" and im not sure if he moved on..not to sum1 else necessarily...just off of me....anbd then when he comes back....i will go back to him in a snap...and jason i dont knwo him and mike is alwasy gunna be on my mind. tho when i get to know jason more my liking fo rhim will gain...but my likings for mike prolly wont lessen. jsut i dont knwo if i wanna do anything about it. id feal guilty or sumthing if i had sone sumthing wiht him becuzz i like mike!! sooo much...iv allready done stuff with other guys and he comes backc and i will ahve to tlel him and its not liek we are going out...but i think it would still hurt him to knwo that i jsut dropped him jsut becuzz. so to tell the truth im in a pickle! jason if a really funn guy..jsut hotta get to knwo him better!:) thats how it goes! hmm...well today not much happend. blah