But I Can't Help Falling In Love With You..

[hunnybunny871]

i HATE my moods...ok like today i was on the bus all happy..adn then i get home and i start feeling sick and i have a headache and i wanan puke adn just idki felt horrible..and then i lay down and start thinking {BAAAAAAD MISTAKE}...i was thinkin about Tanner and how idk its Tanner...and how much of a horrible friend to Alyssa..and all the crap

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[lonely_inside]

Anna, honestly, I think that is the most mature entry you have ever written. I'm glad you said all that. I feel the same way about things. And Josh Daye, I know I will start crying here in a second, but I miss him soooo much. He liked me, and he was not really "cool" and for some reason I thought I was. He came to one of my birthday parties ::tears:: and gave be this porcelain bear. And I still have it. I love it so much. And when he died, I went crazy...I never knew anyone to die, much less a kid. And I just cried and cried and cried. I was soo damn full of myself and I never even acted like I cared. I did though, oh so much. But I never showed it b/c it wasn't the cool thing to do. I mean, I vividly remember walking down to the new gym and him saying hey, and I walked by and laugh. ::more tears:: And I wish I could change that sooooooooooo much, but I can't. And sadly, it took a death of him for me to grow up and realize how much it hurts to be like that to people and ever since I have tried not to care about status in life, and I have never got in car and not wore my seatbelt since then. And God, I miss him sooooo much. <33333

[hunnybunny871]

awww i love u