Apr 26, 2005 23:11
I swear the dumbest question asked is that asked by someone dumb. Did Trenna miss a meeting? “Are we still friends?” Ohhhh you couldnt pick up on the hint when I was ignoring you as I was driving past your house? Notice the car behind me, theyre ignoring you too, then again they never liked you anyway. The nerve of some people, how people have that god forsaken nerve to screw someone over and show up on their door step like nothing happened. It brings a twitch to my eye, well not really. But it should! Its shit like this that is causing me to break out.
I break out on my forehead when Im over stressed. Its happened a few times in high school. But never in my life has it been this bad. I can handle once a month one here or there. But an army of unstoppable outbreaks is mad. I don’t even know what else to try. I went to my doctor....oh clearly its stress.....oh youre kidding doc. So what the hell do I do? I cant go around looking like this!!! I naturally have clear skin. Its always been clear!!! I need it back, I didnt appreciate it enough!!!! I wont take it for granted ever again, “OH PLEASE GOD, WHY HAS THOU FORSAKEN ME????” hmmmm if this was a monolog I am so hired. Cant you feel my pain?
Oh God, the drama in my life.....then theres my father. My mother and I had to attened to a session of “court reporters.” Yea, pshh that went well. I am now convinced my father is possessed by the devil himself, his lawyer is one of the human sacrifices taken over by the under lords demonic attempts to bring hell on earth. Mission accomplished there. I have never felt such rage as I do for my father. His lawyer and the rest of his cold, heartless, demon possessed family. I hope they all die, and very soon. I am also convinced that my father has recently paid off my mothers lawyer since for some odd reason she chooses to side with my father. Nothing odd about that, why should my suspicions be up? MAYBE CAUSE SHES MY MOTHER LAWYER!!!
I think it would be a great idea for all of them to go live in the amityville horror house. As a matter of fact I will pay my father a half million dollars if he and his family would live in the Amityville house for a month. Providing its on my terms. They have to stay there for a complete 30 days with a knife and loaded gun in each room, and dynamite in the basement. An axe, sledge hammer, regular hammer, chain saw and a shovel outside. And in the boat house they need a fishing knife, metal rod and harpoon. And if I don’t hear from any of them I will assume they made the right decision and joined the rest of their family, in hell.
Honestly, the first evil spirt you see in The Amityville Horror is better looking than his lawyer. Id debate with evil in the bathroom any day over his snobby “I need to get laid really bad” bitch of a lawyer. I will be the first to admit anything about myself, and I always say, I am not perfect. And yes I argue with my father, and I yell and I swear. And he does the same. Actually I was raised with his yelling..”but that would be throwing it up in his face” Keep in mind my father overlooks what he does, but if you do it, to hell with you, you will never live it down, guilty once, ALWAYS guilty! So because I yell, hes made me out to be some vindictive bitch that cant control my temper. So his lawyer purposely tried to push my buttons, and I ended up saying.....”Youve asked me that question 3 times already in 3 different ways, I thought we already established the answer” “ooooo maybe we need to take a break” Yea, like I want to take a break so I can be here longer, cause I obviously have no life. Maybe she needed a break to go grab some lunch, perhaps she’d favor a buffet? Stoopid bitch. Then its how many pets do you have? This would be related to my fathers bullshit of, “I own a petting zoo” comment. I have FIVE. 2 Dogs, 2 Cats and 1 Chinchilla. (Yea theres a new member and hes adorable) This is related to how much of his money is going towards the animals. Ummm, none. I made sure to add, 5 pets is nothing compared to the 8 we owned when my father lived with us. (2 dogs, 2 cats, 2 ferrets and 2 birds) Funny thing, Cali the latest cat to the family never even knew my father but any time he comes here she runs and hides, like she can sense the evil presence. And animals have that sixth sense better than humans, so they know. And I bet Chase wouldnt even like my father. (Chase is the Chinchillas name)
Anyway back on track, of all the things to bring up. My music career. Do I make long distant phone calls to Orlando? Do I call a radio station? Keep in mind Im under oath. “Yes” Is this really important? Do you want a DJ to play your CD? “Ummm I DID, but then I decided that I would rather have an official record deal so people can hear more than just one song of mine on the radio and know that its all guaranteed from there.” She asked so many questions about my music, do I write, what do I write, where did I record it at, am I going to keep this up? “Oh yes, you will hear lots of music from me” OH GOD WHAT A STUPID BITCH, God kill her now!!! Maybe she’ll choke on a chicken bone as shes scarfing it down. No....a cows bone. God its like you want to bang your head on a hard surface just to make yourself as retarded as the person asking questions. Maybe ignorance is truly bliss, but I’ll never know, unfortunately I cant say that for the world around me. “Radio stations have toll free numbers” WHAT WORLD DOES THIS PSYCHO LIVE IN? WHAT BUSINESS NOWADAYS DOESNT HAVE A TOLL FREE NUMBER??? GOD WTF!!!!
I honestly havent a clue why Im breaking out, not a fucking clue. Oh and who can forget the part where my father wants to make us move to an apartment or condo. Which means, my bigger dog Augie has to get put down. Oh thats nice, I had him since middle school, let me just kill off a member of my family cause my father is related to the devil. I left a message on his cell saying how Jesus Loves him, its everyone else that thinks hes an ass hole. Which is technically true. And Im sure thats gonna go against me in court, but god forbid I preach the bible to him. Frankly, I need a priest, a cross and some holy water for this one. Can anybody see what this world is becoming? Too much evil is being unleashed. Its spreading like wildfire. Trennas apart of it already. You can already see how lose shes become with the boys, damn was I holding her back. And I swear I wasnt even trying. I give her til the end of this year to be knocked up, but I think its gonna be over the summer. “Weve been thru to much to throw it away” hmm shouldve thought about that before....and technically I didnt throw it away, she did. Its such a Deftones moment.
“I watched a change in you, its like you never had wings”
“Now you feel, so alive”