This isn't important
Nothing new really. Beth hasn't called me yet. I'm getting very anxious about it. I can tell you right now my life will be OVER if I don't get this. I cannot honestly think of anything more important right now. I need to get this job...for me. She said in August that she wanted me to come back and work for her next year because she loved having me there. I called her in february and said I would really like to work there again and that I could reapply, bring my resume up, whatever! She said thats not nessesary she wants me to come back, and that she'd call me to confirm that I still wanted to work for her and when I could make it. i'm not sure if she said "I'll call later" or "I'll call in may", I think I'm just being paranoid.
What if she never calls?? What do I do then? I cannot just move on and get another job. There are factors nvolved I don't want to discuss and I am very anxious. I had a dream I went there and one of my friends said "I got someone BETTER to work here! We don't need you!" I am not joking, I woke up shaking. Not just little shakes either, my entire body had the shakes. It's really bothering me. I don't know how I'll react if I don't get it. It's like University to me! I get to move out! Be on my own! Buy my own stuff. Be my own person! No mitchell! lol, jk, hes aight. I just need this...I really do. It would make me so happy.
I feel like a jerk. My friends are so nice to me and how am I towards them? Terrible! I'm selfish. I don't mean to be complaining, I just want to appologize to anyone I've ever made feel like shit. ANYONE! I'm really sorry guys!You really are the best.
What if she never calls?? What do I do then? I cannot just move on and get another job. There are factors nvolved I don't want to discuss and I am very anxious. I had a dream I went there and one of my friends said "I got someone BETTER to work here! We don't need you!" I am not joking, I woke up shaking. Not just little shakes either, my entire body had the shakes. It's really bothering me. I don't know how I'll react if I don't get it. It's like University to me! I get to move out! Be on my own! Buy my own stuff. Be my own person! No mitchell! lol, jk, hes aight. I just need this...I really do. It would make me so happy.
I feel like a jerk. My friends are so nice to me and how am I towards them? Terrible! I'm selfish. I don't mean to be complaining, I just want to appologize to anyone I've ever made feel like shit. ANYONE! I'm really sorry guys!You really are the best.