so...how about that assembly
Ya, that assembly today. Pretty sure I got home and bawled for a good half hour. I have my reasons. All I could think about the entire time is one of my friends telling me in the summer not to worry about him driving drunk because he does it all the time. Now look, I can't do jack shit about it and it scares me. It's alot to take in. I'm sorry if you think I'm being ridiculous but that really hit me and made me realize alot, not about me of coarse...I don't even fucking drive.
I really feel like if he gets hurt it's my fault and I won't forgive myself for that. Can you even imagine someone doing that ALL the time?? stupid fuck! Do you know how hard it is to just watch someone do that and have no control over it what so ever?? FUCK! Do you know how much you worry the next day?? and how much you sleep that night? NOT AT ALL. Do you know how much I'm going to sleep tonight even? Just after that assembly! And how do I tell him to stop?? I'm just lost and I really feel like I'm the only one who understands right now. I just want to be alone.
I really feel like if he gets hurt it's my fault and I won't forgive myself for that. Can you even imagine someone doing that ALL the time?? stupid fuck! Do you know how hard it is to just watch someone do that and have no control over it what so ever?? FUCK! Do you know how much you worry the next day?? and how much you sleep that night? NOT AT ALL. Do you know how much I'm going to sleep tonight even? Just after that assembly! And how do I tell him to stop?? I'm just lost and I really feel like I'm the only one who understands right now. I just want to be alone.