Been Awhile...
I was looking through my old entries and realized it has been awhile since I have written in this thing. There have been many changes in my life since the last time I written; changes for the better! So far I am enjoying living on my own very much. Sometimes it can get lonely but it is always nice when friends will stop by for a few hours to give me company! I always enjoy the company. Sometimes I do wish I had that special guy in my life where I can just call him up to come stop by for a little bit; I mean, that is the benefit of living on your own and I have not had the opportunity to take advantage of that!
I will tell you one thing; it is a hard adjustment to be single after 4 1/2 years! I find myself holding back when I am around someone I have an interest in. Back in the day I had no problem flirting and playing around with a guy...now I find myself cautious and guarded. I am scared of coming on too strong because I have the fear of being disliked or rejection. And then there is that “first kiss”. Making that move...it has been awhile since I had to worry about the first kiss; the awkwardness of does he want to kiss me? Will I make a fool of myself if I go in for a kiss? Etc.