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i have not written in this thing since june.
lol.
i dont know whats going on anymore.i live day to day, no money in hand. working to have nothing.i need to be working to have something.
i need a break from real life. ive been dealing with real problems, real issues, real drama, alot of things i would never wish upon my worse enemy, money problems, ever since i can remember... and i want a break. i want it to stop. i want it to get easier. am i over come with jealousy? desire? of people who have "everything"? of people who have never been through the shit i have been through? of the people who get things handed to them? sometimes.
i just want life to stop being so hard on me.i just want a "normal" life. one with less shit going wrong. all the time. why is life easy on some peopple? and hard on others?]
im working at wholefoods now. i really like my job. i just wish i didnt have to be there at 6am. i guess it makes more adult.ive aways felt adult. cant wait till i can get full time there. if it doesnt happen soon i might try to get a job back in a restuarnt on a line instead on catering. who knows.
i hope this winter i learn how to snowboard.ok thats it. see you in a few months lj.haha
lol.
i dont know whats going on anymore.i live day to day, no money in hand. working to have nothing.i need to be working to have something.
i need a break from real life. ive been dealing with real problems, real issues, real drama, alot of things i would never wish upon my worse enemy, money problems, ever since i can remember... and i want a break. i want it to stop. i want it to get easier. am i over come with jealousy? desire? of people who have "everything"? of people who have never been through the shit i have been through? of the people who get things handed to them? sometimes.
i just want life to stop being so hard on me.i just want a "normal" life. one with less shit going wrong. all the time. why is life easy on some peopple? and hard on others?]
im working at wholefoods now. i really like my job. i just wish i didnt have to be there at 6am. i guess it makes more adult.ive aways felt adult. cant wait till i can get full time there. if it doesnt happen soon i might try to get a job back in a restuarnt on a line instead on catering. who knows.
i hope this winter i learn how to snowboard.ok thats it. see you in a few months lj.haha