There are the words of the unsophisticated heartbroken romantics..

[hunniforyou]

It's been a long time since I've found the need to write, but here I am. I've got so much going through my mind these last couple of days that it's hard for me not to think of anything else. My heart hurts. Literally hurts. At this stage in my life, I think I can understand why a person would die of a broken heart. To loose someone you love, someone you've spend time with, shared a part or your whole life with only to lose them, is loosing a part of yourself. I don't ever want to be that attached to someone that that senerio happens to me. It's bad enough that I knew going into this relationship with Mike again that I would get hurt, but I didn't realize how bad it was going to be. I mean, no reason, nothing what so ever on why we broke up. I wasn't even worth a damn explaination. Do you know how that makes me feel? We spent almost two months together and then bam! done. Sure we texted one day for an hour or so, but that's as much talking as we've done. My heart is split in half on what to do. Half of me wants to tell him to come over and get his stuff and to lose my numer and never call me again and the other half of me just wants to cry and plead and work through the problems. I wish I knew what the problems were. Maybe I wasn't a good enough girlfriend. I always heard about the things Antionette did for him and it made me wonder if he expected the same things. But then again, he always called her pysco and crazy, so it doesn't make any sense.

Even though we were together two months, we've known each other close to two years. I never knew exactly how he felt about me, other than him saying, "You know when I'm not with you that I miss you".  I wouldn't know unless I asked because he never came out and just said it. I know that he keeps a lot of things inside, but it kills me that we weren't close like we could have been.