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its 336 in the morning.
and i can not sleep at all.
A lot is on my mind. but for once im not stressed out.
I finally told brandon i am done with everything. we hurt eachother a lot. but i guess shit happens you know.? Yet he still insists on calling me a slut and whore and bitch and whatever else.
Today was stephs birtday. happy bday., sorry i wasnt there. but i never ditched you. thats just what it seems like.
See ive realized its easy to make assumptions when your an outsider. but it isnt until you step on the inside that you realize whats really going on. and i wish other people would realize that.
my body is dehydrated. ive cried so much in the past half hour than i ever had in my life.
but thanks to robby rob im alright.
Last night i hung out with the mudder crew and drank a lil. Joey was so gonna take me for a ride on the back of his bike but he thought i was ignoring him or something. i felt bad. cuz i so wasnt. just felt a lil awkward. thats all. but then they convinced me to stay the night at candis. shes pretty cool didnt go to bed till liek 5 am again. woke up at liek 11 called steph whished her a happy bday. and went to auto parts galore with nick candi hillbilly and joey. that wasnt the place i wanted to be at. it was kinda boring and i had other plans. but i didnt have a way home. oh well though i still had fun. came home showerd hung out with nick for a lil bit and then went home then hung out with phil abby and amy for a lil bit and robby rob and matt met us up at mccy d's. ran into old manager matt! yay! tried getting ahold of nick but he ignored me cuz he thought i dtiched steph wich is stupid to even think that.
but then me and amy went to the park with rob and matt and just relaxed. and out of all people. me and amy so needed that. we just all sat and talked and it was really nice. they talk so damn fast though lol. haah. love them. but yeah. then brandon keeps talking to me putting me down and shit but i dont give 2 shits about it anymore. so whatev.
relationships come and go you should know that.
you either break up or get married.
idk someone told me that haha.
and i can not sleep at all.
A lot is on my mind. but for once im not stressed out.
I finally told brandon i am done with everything. we hurt eachother a lot. but i guess shit happens you know.? Yet he still insists on calling me a slut and whore and bitch and whatever else.
Today was stephs birtday. happy bday., sorry i wasnt there. but i never ditched you. thats just what it seems like.
See ive realized its easy to make assumptions when your an outsider. but it isnt until you step on the inside that you realize whats really going on. and i wish other people would realize that.
my body is dehydrated. ive cried so much in the past half hour than i ever had in my life.
but thanks to robby rob im alright.
Last night i hung out with the mudder crew and drank a lil. Joey was so gonna take me for a ride on the back of his bike but he thought i was ignoring him or something. i felt bad. cuz i so wasnt. just felt a lil awkward. thats all. but then they convinced me to stay the night at candis. shes pretty cool didnt go to bed till liek 5 am again. woke up at liek 11 called steph whished her a happy bday. and went to auto parts galore with nick candi hillbilly and joey. that wasnt the place i wanted to be at. it was kinda boring and i had other plans. but i didnt have a way home. oh well though i still had fun. came home showerd hung out with nick for a lil bit and then went home then hung out with phil abby and amy for a lil bit and robby rob and matt met us up at mccy d's. ran into old manager matt! yay! tried getting ahold of nick but he ignored me cuz he thought i dtiched steph wich is stupid to even think that.
but then me and amy went to the park with rob and matt and just relaxed. and out of all people. me and amy so needed that. we just all sat and talked and it was really nice. they talk so damn fast though lol. haah. love them. but yeah. then brandon keeps talking to me putting me down and shit but i dont give 2 shits about it anymore. so whatev.
relationships come and go you should know that.
you either break up or get married.
idk someone told me that haha.