Love
Josh is such a special person to me. I just love being with him. I was worried for a while. Maybe not worried...but well I don't know the word for it. Yesterday he went off with his friend Jessica to celebrate her birthday. While I know he never told me, I knew he had a crush on her pretty bad back in high school. I felt really uncomfortable yesterday knowing he was out with her. Not because I didn't trust him...it just made me uncomfortable. She dropped him off at my house to have dinner with me and my parents. I still felt like I had to talk to him, but I didn't. However, any problems I had went away when we went to Jessica's house. Josh and his friend Jeremy went outside (Jeremy had to smoke). I was left in Jessica's room with her and Lynne. Jessica told me how happy she was for Josh. Basically I was left feeling much better. I knew that Josh loves me and only me and I have nothing to worry about. Apparantly he had talked to Jessica about us getting married. That makes me feel a lot better. I can truely say I have never been this happy in my life. I wish I could freeze my life at this moment and stay here forever.