Falling is human.

Falling is normal.

Falling happens.

Falling is what makes you aware that you’re indeed alive, and not only that. You’re living.

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Hiroto really didn’t know what to think when he woke up that morning, bright sunshine lulling his room in a soft golden color, but inside his heart it was nothing but raining. Ceaselessly.

He woke up ( Read more... )

It wasn’t until july that things really started. Over the past two months, they had gone back to their usual routine, Shou going to university and cutting hair twice a week, Tora working at the little comic shop just a few blocks away from where they lived, often twelve hours a day because they were lacking personal.

It hadn’t been pretty. In fact ( Read more... )

„If only I could I’d make it all better.“

How pretty those words sounded in complete silence. How perfect.Made to be said in silence, in privacy, when sharing one of their rare intimate moments.

“If I could I’d make time turn back again.”

Empty words pretending to carry such depth. Hollowed out and yet sounding so promising in utter silence. So ( Read more... )

One cold evening in december, after Tora had come home from work, he found himself sitting on the edge of the bathtube in their way too small bathroom with Shou standing in front of him, face flushed and wildly gesticulating with his hands, always close to knocking things over.

“I swear, these teachers who told me I should study music should burn ( Read more... )

He’s there and he isn’t.

He’s talking but he’s making no audible sound. He’s crying but there are no tears streaming down his face. He’s smiling but his face stays as rigid and emotionless as ever.

He’s there. He definitely is. The sound of his breath resounds in the otherwise silent room, and the sharp noise of the melting ice cubes in his drink ( Read more... )

Title: Out Loud
Chapters: Oneshot
Author:
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In april, they celebrated their first anniversary. It had been exactly a year since they had met on a warm spring day at the park.

Tora was determined to make this day to a beautiful, lasting memory. Even though Shou had burst out laughing when Tora had called it  their “anniversary”(it sounded like they were a couple in a relationship, even Tora ( Read more... )

Half a year after their first encounter, Tora came home only to find Shou sitting in front of his door, head carefully betted on his knees.

“Shou?”, Tora whispered, thinking the other man might be sleeping.

No reaction.

“Shou? What are you doing here?”

No reaction.

Tora sighed, unlocked the door and opened it.

“Shou, come get inside. You can’t sleep ( Read more... )

“Did you know”, Shou said, warm eyes huge and sparkling,“that elephants can die from loneliness?”

They were sitting in a cute little cafe on a cold morning somewhen in january. Thick layers of snow covered the sidewalks, the streets were icy and slippery and cold wind hauled against the windows.

Snorting, Tora placed a hand on Shou’s and looked up to ( Read more... )

Don’t you ever get that feeling? Late at night, when there’s nobody there and you’re laying awake in your bed, staring at the at the dull white or blue or whatever color your wallpaper is, but not really seeing it, suddenly becoming aware of your past, your present, your future self?

Or at four in the morning, when the first rays of sunlight creep ( Read more... )