expect nothing and you'll never get hurt
Well I have finally discovered and realized why those I love the most have been distant from me, or at least seemed that way. I never stopped to think that maybe their own lives were getting in the way, and maybe things would be better if this had've occured to me sooner, but who knows.
Over the past year to 2 years, there has been great undeniable change in my life, to say the least. I have gone through so many ups and downs in that time that I doubt even God himself could've been able to keep track of them all. More corners have been turned than ever before and I have experienced more change in myself and in my life than I ever have, and I am the man I am today because of it. I am at a crossroads in my life, and while I am quite confused about which direction I should go in, there are a lot of things I feel I have to fix, which includes my relationships with a select few (some of whom I've discussed here previously); partly because there is no one else who can do it. At the same time, I have to find what's right for me, whatever the hell that may be, wherever the hell that may be.
These past couple of years have left my life forever changed, and there is nothing I can do to change anything that has changed, back to the way it once was. This has changed the world, mine at least. The above-mentioned things are not the only reasons, but you will all learn the rest of them when the time is right. All I know now is that the situation in my life as it stands right now isn't gonna keep me going forever, and especially after being informed about something today which lets just say made me less than enthusiastic, I know now more than ever that it's time for me to take comeplete control of things in my life, and take the steps I need to take in order for my life to be what I want it to be. It is time for me to take charge of me, and do the things I know I have to do, and do other things which I feel are the right things to do in terms of healing old wounds with a few others. I have to think about priority #1 (me) I have to find whatever's out there for me, and this is the last you're gonna be hearing of me for a long time. The time is now, and the clock is unstoppable. A new chapter of my life is beginning to open, and I have to do everything I can to make sure that what is written in this chapter is what I want to be written. Those who know how to reach me can feel free to do so, but this is my time now. And mine is what I hope to make it. Real hope never dies. Sometimes it's all you have. But it was a big part of what got me to where I am today, and was a huge factor in keeping myself going all this time. No one truly has nothing if one has hope in their heart. It is a fire that cannot be extinguished, and neither can mine. A lot of decisions have to be made, and I will let you know what they are when the time comes. For now, I have to go.
Until further notice, I will check in from time to time, just like you; But that's it. At least for now. I'm done.
The boy that you loved is the man that you fear
~Drew
Over the past year to 2 years, there has been great undeniable change in my life, to say the least. I have gone through so many ups and downs in that time that I doubt even God himself could've been able to keep track of them all. More corners have been turned than ever before and I have experienced more change in myself and in my life than I ever have, and I am the man I am today because of it. I am at a crossroads in my life, and while I am quite confused about which direction I should go in, there are a lot of things I feel I have to fix, which includes my relationships with a select few (some of whom I've discussed here previously); partly because there is no one else who can do it. At the same time, I have to find what's right for me, whatever the hell that may be, wherever the hell that may be.
These past couple of years have left my life forever changed, and there is nothing I can do to change anything that has changed, back to the way it once was. This has changed the world, mine at least. The above-mentioned things are not the only reasons, but you will all learn the rest of them when the time is right. All I know now is that the situation in my life as it stands right now isn't gonna keep me going forever, and especially after being informed about something today which lets just say made me less than enthusiastic, I know now more than ever that it's time for me to take comeplete control of things in my life, and take the steps I need to take in order for my life to be what I want it to be. It is time for me to take charge of me, and do the things I know I have to do, and do other things which I feel are the right things to do in terms of healing old wounds with a few others. I have to think about priority #1 (me) I have to find whatever's out there for me, and this is the last you're gonna be hearing of me for a long time. The time is now, and the clock is unstoppable. A new chapter of my life is beginning to open, and I have to do everything I can to make sure that what is written in this chapter is what I want to be written. Those who know how to reach me can feel free to do so, but this is my time now. And mine is what I hope to make it. Real hope never dies. Sometimes it's all you have. But it was a big part of what got me to where I am today, and was a huge factor in keeping myself going all this time. No one truly has nothing if one has hope in their heart. It is a fire that cannot be extinguished, and neither can mine. A lot of decisions have to be made, and I will let you know what they are when the time comes. For now, I have to go.
Until further notice, I will check in from time to time, just like you; But that's it. At least for now. I'm done.
The boy that you loved is the man that you fear
~Drew