Christmas 2010
Thought Of You - A 2D short film
This video strikes me in my heart, it brings tears of pain and understanding in my eyes.
On such a day as this, I find it ironic that I would come across this video. I remind myself that this is not how I will be, it is not who I will be.
I am reminded by myself to be thankful for all that I do have, and for the people in my life who make it worth living. I am glad to be where I am, and grateful, as it could be much, much worse.
I pray for those in poorer conditions than I, and for those who are experiencing difficulties today, when many of us in the world are laying down the arms of our hearts to be merry and bask in the warmth of our families love. I hope that peace and joy are brought to the people who suffer this Christmas season, and that mercy is given where it is due. I want to feel happier, and I wish to feel more merry and joyful today, but I feel pain in my heart, and in my eyes, and in my mind. I noticed these feelings when I was eating breakfast earlier, and I was wondering why I was feeling that way... I couldn't figure it out. Maybe it was loneliness creeping in on me because of the video above. But that didn't make too much sense, it was only a video... but Maybe I am in denial that everything might not be okay with me. Maybe the video was my own subconscious self trying to explain to me that I am lonely. Maybe the video was meant only for me to see, and not to share... a secret to keep to myself. But I hate keeping secrets about myself.
In any case... as much as I am hurting inside, I know that countless others in this world are hurting more. I don't want to type anymore about this subject because I fear that I may subconsciously disrespect those less fortunate than I...
so with that, I hope that you and yours, whoever might be reading this, appreciates what they have been given and blessed with, and experiences a truly heartwarming and soul mending holiday season.
Merry Christmas to all, and to all a Happy New Year.
<3
This video strikes me in my heart, it brings tears of pain and understanding in my eyes.
On such a day as this, I find it ironic that I would come across this video. I remind myself that this is not how I will be, it is not who I will be.
I am reminded by myself to be thankful for all that I do have, and for the people in my life who make it worth living. I am glad to be where I am, and grateful, as it could be much, much worse.
I pray for those in poorer conditions than I, and for those who are experiencing difficulties today, when many of us in the world are laying down the arms of our hearts to be merry and bask in the warmth of our families love. I hope that peace and joy are brought to the people who suffer this Christmas season, and that mercy is given where it is due. I want to feel happier, and I wish to feel more merry and joyful today, but I feel pain in my heart, and in my eyes, and in my mind. I noticed these feelings when I was eating breakfast earlier, and I was wondering why I was feeling that way... I couldn't figure it out. Maybe it was loneliness creeping in on me because of the video above. But that didn't make too much sense, it was only a video... but Maybe I am in denial that everything might not be okay with me. Maybe the video was my own subconscious self trying to explain to me that I am lonely. Maybe the video was meant only for me to see, and not to share... a secret to keep to myself. But I hate keeping secrets about myself.
In any case... as much as I am hurting inside, I know that countless others in this world are hurting more. I don't want to type anymore about this subject because I fear that I may subconsciously disrespect those less fortunate than I...
so with that, I hope that you and yours, whoever might be reading this, appreciates what they have been given and blessed with, and experiences a truly heartwarming and soul mending holiday season.
Merry Christmas to all, and to all a Happy New Year.
<3