Wake up, stay focused.
As I reflect upon the last year of my life, I notice that I had been relatively unproductive. I have been productive, yes, but I have also remained sedentary in the situation I am in, financially, and emotionally. I have let myself succumb to my yearning for human companionship, instead of staying focused on the real goals in my life, which are to climb out of debt and to be in a position in life to live in my own home, and actually enjoy my life the way I really should be enjoying it at this time in my life.
This is not my year, I will be in this same position for a little while longer. Next year, though, things are going to change. Things will be better. Opportunities will arise from the new acquaintances and connections I make with the people and the world around me. I keep getting hung up over the pace at which I am moving forward, which is understandably unnerving in some respects... yet I must keep reminding myself that slow and steady will win the race.
I am coming to a point in my life where I will have to come to terms with the fact that some important people in my life will be moving away, for school, work, love... while I remain here, struggling to keep a foothold on whatever stability I have in my life at the moment.
My car is almost back in good condition, I just have one more thing to fix and it will be good as (relatively) new. I still have to pay the Virginia reinstatement fee, which has been plaguing my mind for the past couple of months. As soon as that is paid, I will have a big weight lifted off my shoulders, and I will be able to focus more on getting myself to a doctor in order to work out an arrangement for physical therapy and professional solutions to the back pain and continuing damage my spine is taking from the tolls of working as a grocery store clerk. I feel that I will be able to have more room and time to think about what I really want to do with my life, and maybe to seriously sit down and consider my dreams of making arm jewelry as a means of supplementary income.
I would like to obtain a nice government job, with decent insurance options and retirement plans.
On the other side of my productivity goals, I plan to attend some major events which I have been unable to attend due to distractions and vices in the past. I want to spend a week for myself and with close friends, to enjoy my existence in this world and appreciate the beauty of the world around me, natural and artificial.
Getting completely out of debt within the next year is a daunting idea. I doubt it will happen, as it would require me to give up happiness and contentment with myself in order to do so, and I am sure that I am not willing to sacrifice the well-being of my mind for a better credit score. Patience is a virtue, and I am continually learning how to live with it.
This time next year, you shall see stars in my eyes, and genuine love in the form of a smile from my mouth.
And on a completely different note, the problem I have with Humanism is that it disregards the existence of God, which is immature and short-sighted at best. We were not here first, and we will not be here at the end. We are mere manifestations of a greater being, part of a whole, and not the whole itself. We are not God... We are part of God. Divine, yet as individuals, not the Divine One. Humanism brings to mind an egotistical undercurrent which I find flawed. On the other hand, I do believe in many of its ideals, and of its ultimate goals, which are for Peace and harmony.
God bless, and don't give up. PLUR.
This is not my year, I will be in this same position for a little while longer. Next year, though, things are going to change. Things will be better. Opportunities will arise from the new acquaintances and connections I make with the people and the world around me. I keep getting hung up over the pace at which I am moving forward, which is understandably unnerving in some respects... yet I must keep reminding myself that slow and steady will win the race.
I am coming to a point in my life where I will have to come to terms with the fact that some important people in my life will be moving away, for school, work, love... while I remain here, struggling to keep a foothold on whatever stability I have in my life at the moment.
My car is almost back in good condition, I just have one more thing to fix and it will be good as (relatively) new. I still have to pay the Virginia reinstatement fee, which has been plaguing my mind for the past couple of months. As soon as that is paid, I will have a big weight lifted off my shoulders, and I will be able to focus more on getting myself to a doctor in order to work out an arrangement for physical therapy and professional solutions to the back pain and continuing damage my spine is taking from the tolls of working as a grocery store clerk. I feel that I will be able to have more room and time to think about what I really want to do with my life, and maybe to seriously sit down and consider my dreams of making arm jewelry as a means of supplementary income.
I would like to obtain a nice government job, with decent insurance options and retirement plans.
On the other side of my productivity goals, I plan to attend some major events which I have been unable to attend due to distractions and vices in the past. I want to spend a week for myself and with close friends, to enjoy my existence in this world and appreciate the beauty of the world around me, natural and artificial.
Getting completely out of debt within the next year is a daunting idea. I doubt it will happen, as it would require me to give up happiness and contentment with myself in order to do so, and I am sure that I am not willing to sacrifice the well-being of my mind for a better credit score. Patience is a virtue, and I am continually learning how to live with it.
This time next year, you shall see stars in my eyes, and genuine love in the form of a smile from my mouth.
And on a completely different note, the problem I have with Humanism is that it disregards the existence of God, which is immature and short-sighted at best. We were not here first, and we will not be here at the end. We are mere manifestations of a greater being, part of a whole, and not the whole itself. We are not God... We are part of God. Divine, yet as individuals, not the Divine One. Humanism brings to mind an egotistical undercurrent which I find flawed. On the other hand, I do believe in many of its ideals, and of its ultimate goals, which are for Peace and harmony.
God bless, and don't give up. PLUR.