Explaining this - part two

[hundun]

Part Two: Your Bodily Identity Interacts with your Developmental Experience

Here I take a less general approach. I will try to use my own more transsexual/body-related experiences to walk you through this.

People have told me "I can't really imagine being in that situation of wanting to change my sex."

I think that most people can. It's just that

Comments

[chicazul]

The interesting thing is that the more I think about this, the more convinced I am that my innermost gender identity is null. Anything I do that is "girly" (wearing skirts or makeup, chatting with other girls, realizing that I still have breasts) feels like an act, and I'm always worried that someone will catch on that I'm just faking it. At the same time, I have only a vague curiosity about being male; mostly curiosity about whether I could fake that too.

I bend easily to other people's expectations of me--I'm willing to bet that had I been born a boy, I would have cheerfully accepted that designation. Shame there's no way to know for sure.

[hundun]

So how would you feel about taking male hormones, or otherwise moving your body outside of the female realm?

[chicazul]

It would be neat to experience, but at this point I wouldn't want permanent changes. I'm finally starting to feel like I've figured out the girl thing. Plus, given current medical technology, taking male hormones would not make me male, it would just make me a less attractive female. The chances of getting a male body that functions as well as my female one is so slim that I would need an awfully good reason to want to switch

[chicazul]

Did I just post that anonymously? I think I did. Whoops.

[hundun]

A very thorough response! Awesome.

The cosplay aspect is especially interesting. Would you have any interest in learning how to be more easily read as male? I'm pretty sure it's doable.