Stages
Quite the party last night!
I'm still posting transgender stuff on my journal, but there'll be another shift in character.
1 - I began in August and September with "holy shit, I think I'm trans - is this right?"
2 - This segued into "Okay.... What does this feel like? How do I deal with it?"
3 - Then came navigating the medical system and starting to fiddle with my appearance.
At present, this involves looking at long-term health issues, nutrition, and surgical options. I'm also getting carry papers (documents stating "yes this person is female") and doing a legal name change.
4 - Following this came the hormones and their effect on me. I'm a little disappointed to know that I'm on or very near to a full dose, and there won't be any other sudden changes in my biochemical-cognitive interaction.
My dreams continue to be shockingly vivid (progesterone). Even when waking, I can no longer ignore my subconscious, and even overlooking it is a feat. I have more energy and am happier - I think this is what it feels like when you're starting to be not depressed instead of fighting depression. It's been more than half my life since I could say that. Trans ain't the only reason for this, but it goes a long way.
5 - Now I'm into a stage of presenting, with or without effort, as decidedly female and noting how this feels - what the reactions are, how I feel about those, and how feeling and perception interect. This is where the sociologist is happy and the shy girl is intimidated.
More to come, of course.
On a side not, I'm thinking of a remaning party in late August that could also serve as a community right-of-passage party.
Done something notable in the last year? Graduated? Changed something important? Want to announce something? Have a request for the community? Comment and we can maybe it can be worked in.
I'm still posting transgender stuff on my journal, but there'll be another shift in character.
1 - I began in August and September with "holy shit, I think I'm trans - is this right?"
2 - This segued into "Okay.... What does this feel like? How do I deal with it?"
3 - Then came navigating the medical system and starting to fiddle with my appearance.
At present, this involves looking at long-term health issues, nutrition, and surgical options. I'm also getting carry papers (documents stating "yes this person is female") and doing a legal name change.
4 - Following this came the hormones and their effect on me. I'm a little disappointed to know that I'm on or very near to a full dose, and there won't be any other sudden changes in my biochemical-cognitive interaction.
My dreams continue to be shockingly vivid (progesterone). Even when waking, I can no longer ignore my subconscious, and even overlooking it is a feat. I have more energy and am happier - I think this is what it feels like when you're starting to be not depressed instead of fighting depression. It's been more than half my life since I could say that. Trans ain't the only reason for this, but it goes a long way.
5 - Now I'm into a stage of presenting, with or without effort, as decidedly female and noting how this feels - what the reactions are, how I feel about those, and how feeling and perception interect. This is where the sociologist is happy and the shy girl is intimidated.
More to come, of course.
On a side not, I'm thinking of a remaning party in late August that could also serve as a community right-of-passage party.
Done something notable in the last year? Graduated? Changed something important? Want to announce something? Have a request for the community? Comment and we can maybe it can be worked in.