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So sweetest day was pretty stupid.
.I didnt get any sleep last night because my John stayed up at all hours of the night with the radio playing as loud as it possibly could play while screaming YEHHHH as loud as he could.
.I came over colleen's house around 1:30 ish and took a nap untill around 7. Had plans to hang out with .Krista but things didnt work out. Not saying i thought things even would. Since thats my luck with plans.
.Colleen and I wanted to go to some bon-fire since there wasnt anything else to do. Ashley was going to give us a ride but some girls house burned down? I dont know.
.We got a few calls from a few different people wanting to hang out. But then had lame excuses that we couldnt untill later. Then never called back?
.So we rented some crazy movie that was meant to be scary but ended up being hillariously stupid. Imagine this, an ant eater being the gate keeper between heaven and whatever you would like to call what were living in rite now. Colleen passed out around the middle of the movie.
.Since i had a long nap today, im not up to sleeping yet.
I cant help but be completely bitter on sweetest day this year. For some reason this sweetest day feels different. I was alone for all the other sweetest days but it never actually made me feel lonely or anything. I only wanted to be with one person. But thats completely out of the question. Things seriously will never change. I dont know what is wrong with me. I talked with Baldes on the half day. Its different/good hearing things from a guy's perspective. Im just going to focus on friends and school right now. Guys are just friends.
.I didnt get any sleep last night because my John stayed up at all hours of the night with the radio playing as loud as it possibly could play while screaming YEHHHH as loud as he could.
.I came over colleen's house around 1:30 ish and took a nap untill around 7. Had plans to hang out with .Krista but things didnt work out. Not saying i thought things even would. Since thats my luck with plans.
.Colleen and I wanted to go to some bon-fire since there wasnt anything else to do. Ashley was going to give us a ride but some girls house burned down? I dont know.
.We got a few calls from a few different people wanting to hang out. But then had lame excuses that we couldnt untill later. Then never called back?
.So we rented some crazy movie that was meant to be scary but ended up being hillariously stupid. Imagine this, an ant eater being the gate keeper between heaven and whatever you would like to call what were living in rite now. Colleen passed out around the middle of the movie.
.Since i had a long nap today, im not up to sleeping yet.
I cant help but be completely bitter on sweetest day this year. For some reason this sweetest day feels different. I was alone for all the other sweetest days but it never actually made me feel lonely or anything. I only wanted to be with one person. But thats completely out of the question. Things seriously will never change. I dont know what is wrong with me. I talked with Baldes on the half day. Its different/good hearing things from a guy's perspective. Im just going to focus on friends and school right now. Guys are just friends.