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dads been really sick. pretty much ever since he had the surgery. gastric bypass three years ago with me. i don't really want to get into it. the ones that know, know. he is dying. his organs are failing him. i know he won't last much longer. he's on a ventilator, and iv feeding tube and everything that they can stick down his throat. i went to hold his hand. no grip. i told him i loved him and if he needed to go it was okay. we'd be fine. i love my father. we've always been close because of the weight issue. you think your parents are incvincible then they aren't. he's not gone yet. but he's not far away. i know he doesnt wan't to be like this. so please pray that it's painless. he has no control of his body anymore. just pray that it's quick and painless. i'll be okay. just please, no matter what faith you are, buddhist what have you. just pray that it's fast. thank you.