its not so bad
today as i walked in the rain, i was t hining to myself that life at the moment isnt so bad, i have a job that most people would despratly love, i enjoy my job alot, ive lost stacks of weight, i now have muscle where i didnt know muscle existed, im feeling healthier, im looking better, im earing more.
but what is missing?, probally my frinds. i miss the fun times we all had, i miss the times when peoples little squabbles didnt hinder our spaz adventures, i miss spaz adventures. ive just been orginzing to have a weeks anual leave in november so i can finally "a year over due" take my end of year 12 holiday with Tess who herself has just finished yr 12.
i still feel bizzare and bad about our trip, the whole planning for lakes enrtance and then the he whant go if she goes BS. and then having to ring up the place and say we arnt able to make it,
then being thrown into full time work "wich i didnt mind at first" with all that on my mind. i winge alot dont i?
tommorow is my first ADO "aquired day off" i get one paid day off a month. so im gona enjoy it. im gona walk up to safeway "cos im to stupid and busy to get my P;s yet, nor do i have a car" and get some food. im thinking about a late bacon breakfast, maybe some coke.
i am so stupidly looking forward to going away, not only because im sick of working without a break, i had a weekend betwen jobs. and i have been whanting to see tess for a whole year. i even think my last words to her was "i'll see you in 1 year"
my brother owes me so much money. DIRECTLY $2,700 indirectly a few thousand more
i look at my account and think.. with all the money i have made this year and from what i rememebr spending i should have in the 5 figure range. but alas its not.....
i dont know what to do. i would like my money. but hes my brother. .......hmmmm
i also miss taking photos of stuff, i have gigs apon gigs of photos and films taking during highschool. and maybe 100 photos of 2005 "not much considering how many photos i take each time"
so much for my travelling plans, allthough there is still time. what am i thinking? im 18. already working in a job most mid 20 year olds just start, earning as much as my father, wich i think secreley pisses him off, and at the same time makes him proud. i should just save up and go.. im happy now i can actualy take time of work, and not that stupid fuckwit ex boss of mine graham. who said we couldnt take any holiday for a year.. WORK A YEAR WITH NO BREAK!! FUCK THAT.. he has only JUST finished my group cirtificuit.......only 2 months over due. i should be gettign ALL my tax back. wich im just going to put aside for if i need it.
the more i think about it, the more pissed off i get knowing i worked for that fuckhead in the first place. and now my good friend guru who i felt bad leaving at IGA when i left. is finally moving on. along with another long term full time employee mark, so graham is gona have 2 full time persitions to fill. i hope he has a nervouse breakdown, again.
anyway thats quite alot from me.
i wish you and all your loved ones well
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but what is missing?, probally my frinds. i miss the fun times we all had, i miss the times when peoples little squabbles didnt hinder our spaz adventures, i miss spaz adventures. ive just been orginzing to have a weeks anual leave in november so i can finally "a year over due" take my end of year 12 holiday with Tess who herself has just finished yr 12.
i still feel bizzare and bad about our trip, the whole planning for lakes enrtance and then the he whant go if she goes BS. and then having to ring up the place and say we arnt able to make it,
then being thrown into full time work "wich i didnt mind at first" with all that on my mind. i winge alot dont i?
tommorow is my first ADO "aquired day off" i get one paid day off a month. so im gona enjoy it. im gona walk up to safeway "cos im to stupid and busy to get my P;s yet, nor do i have a car" and get some food. im thinking about a late bacon breakfast, maybe some coke.
i am so stupidly looking forward to going away, not only because im sick of working without a break, i had a weekend betwen jobs. and i have been whanting to see tess for a whole year. i even think my last words to her was "i'll see you in 1 year"
my brother owes me so much money. DIRECTLY $2,700 indirectly a few thousand more
i look at my account and think.. with all the money i have made this year and from what i rememebr spending i should have in the 5 figure range. but alas its not.....
i dont know what to do. i would like my money. but hes my brother. .......hmmmm
i also miss taking photos of stuff, i have gigs apon gigs of photos and films taking during highschool. and maybe 100 photos of 2005 "not much considering how many photos i take each time"
so much for my travelling plans, allthough there is still time. what am i thinking? im 18. already working in a job most mid 20 year olds just start, earning as much as my father, wich i think secreley pisses him off, and at the same time makes him proud. i should just save up and go.. im happy now i can actualy take time of work, and not that stupid fuckwit ex boss of mine graham. who said we couldnt take any holiday for a year.. WORK A YEAR WITH NO BREAK!! FUCK THAT.. he has only JUST finished my group cirtificuit.......only 2 months over due. i should be gettign ALL my tax back. wich im just going to put aside for if i need it.
the more i think about it, the more pissed off i get knowing i worked for that fuckhead in the first place. and now my good friend guru who i felt bad leaving at IGA when i left. is finally moving on. along with another long term full time employee mark, so graham is gona have 2 full time persitions to fill. i hope he has a nervouse breakdown, again.
anyway thats quite alot from me.
i wish you and all your loved ones well
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