(no subject)
Morning,
So, I'm 24. I have asthma, eczema, almost legally blind, arthritis in fingers and shoulders, carpal tunnel syndrome that I ignore, esophagitis, irritable bowel syndrome, chronic depression, and have had back and neck pains since I was 12. Due to the way I eat of once a day and sometimes not even that, I'm probably anorexic. I also have a bad left shoulder due to it being double jointed or something and I think I've rubbed away most of the cartilage throughout the years of showing it off... I don't show it off much anymore because it hurts too much to do so.
I own what was a 3000$ computer and is now probably worth 1000$ or possibly less, 2000$ in books which I haven't read, enough clothes for exactly a week and a bed on the other side of the country.
I make after taxes 2000$/month. I pay out 650$/month for rent, 250$/month for a 25,000$ loan, 125$/month for asthma medication (if all is going well and I don't require other medications), 50 - 100$/month for cell phone, and I owe my mother 1000$, my brother 1000$, and my dad 400$. Groceries cost 100-200$/month and gas costs 100$/month. After February I have to pay the insurance on my car as well.
I have made no new friends since I left high school and have lost a few. The ones I would still like to consider friends I seldomly talk to since I rarely have anything to talk about and they still live near each other while I have moved a few times since. I don't know anything about their lives anymore.
I have had 5 girls love me. I regret not being able to make them happy. I've had one girlfriend in early 2001 and none since. I regret not realizing I loved her until too late. And up until September of 2007 I had no physical contact with a girl of an intimate nature. Had a friend with benefits during that month of sorts. I regret it.
I play World of Warcraft and up until recently purely solo. Some of the people I like to consider still friends are looking at playing WoW with me and we'll see if that becomes more permanent for them. I have a level 55 warlock with shitty gear. And I play the now "resurrected" Nightmare, Rise of Praxis. But really I just idle there and deal with irritating players as the unofficial PR guy. I own many games that I wanted to play but now do not have the time.
I rent a room in an unfinished basement in a house with two roommates (my landlords) and it sucks. But there are no other places as cheap as this or as close to my job as this. I hate living with people.
I want many things that I will never have. I regret many things I can never redo.
I love my job... when I don't fuck up. But I'm slow at it; at least, I think I am.
Evening,
I.M. updated and I need a drink, very badly. At least I don't drink alcohol, or else I'd probably be an alcoholic like my father used to be.
So, I'm 24. I have asthma, eczema, almost legally blind, arthritis in fingers and shoulders, carpal tunnel syndrome that I ignore, esophagitis, irritable bowel syndrome, chronic depression, and have had back and neck pains since I was 12. Due to the way I eat of once a day and sometimes not even that, I'm probably anorexic. I also have a bad left shoulder due to it being double jointed or something and I think I've rubbed away most of the cartilage throughout the years of showing it off... I don't show it off much anymore because it hurts too much to do so.
I own what was a 3000$ computer and is now probably worth 1000$ or possibly less, 2000$ in books which I haven't read, enough clothes for exactly a week and a bed on the other side of the country.
I make after taxes 2000$/month. I pay out 650$/month for rent, 250$/month for a 25,000$ loan, 125$/month for asthma medication (if all is going well and I don't require other medications), 50 - 100$/month for cell phone, and I owe my mother 1000$, my brother 1000$, and my dad 400$. Groceries cost 100-200$/month and gas costs 100$/month. After February I have to pay the insurance on my car as well.
I have made no new friends since I left high school and have lost a few. The ones I would still like to consider friends I seldomly talk to since I rarely have anything to talk about and they still live near each other while I have moved a few times since. I don't know anything about their lives anymore.
I have had 5 girls love me. I regret not being able to make them happy. I've had one girlfriend in early 2001 and none since. I regret not realizing I loved her until too late. And up until September of 2007 I had no physical contact with a girl of an intimate nature. Had a friend with benefits during that month of sorts. I regret it.
I play World of Warcraft and up until recently purely solo. Some of the people I like to consider still friends are looking at playing WoW with me and we'll see if that becomes more permanent for them. I have a level 55 warlock with shitty gear. And I play the now "resurrected" Nightmare, Rise of Praxis. But really I just idle there and deal with irritating players as the unofficial PR guy. I own many games that I wanted to play but now do not have the time.
I rent a room in an unfinished basement in a house with two roommates (my landlords) and it sucks. But there are no other places as cheap as this or as close to my job as this. I hate living with people.
I want many things that I will never have. I regret many things I can never redo.
I love my job... when I don't fuck up. But I'm slow at it; at least, I think I am.
Evening,
I.M. updated and I need a drink, very badly. At least I don't drink alcohol, or else I'd probably be an alcoholic like my father used to be.