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Theres a hole in the top right corner of the elevator in my apartment complex, big enough for my index finger, its for the latch mechanism that catches the door when it shuts, right before the elevator is evalated, that latch is broken- thats why the elevator door shuts so quickly.
I really dont like livejournal, it doesnt feel comfortable, it doesnt feel organic or inviting. ' Maybe its my site design' ive thought, or...' maybe those update forms, the really boring colors, am i not attracted to writing it in because of that? ' No....
I feel like I'm writing for someone when I write in here, not for myself , not my deep thoughts or new happenings, but just updating strangers, attracting the interest of people that I don't know at all.
This journal isn't helping me with anything, the words I express are boring and uninspired. I shouldn't be writing for no one, I shouldnt be writing for someone, a journal isnt PUBLIC , whats this idea anyways? By expressing yourself to an audience you are writing articles, you are writing essays and autobiographys, not ideas- not feelings, emotions or realizations!
Live...journal, live journal , whats live mean? does it mean its really happening, does it mean its happening right now. All this journal does is make me feel like i should have more friends so those friends can publicly view the nothingness that i have to say and why? I dont even like attention, I like connection, attention means connection without any emotions-right?
ATTENTION, thats a command, a command for someone to look at you but not feel or want anything, but just to look at you-to observe.
live journal makes no sense, Im leaving it as far as posting goes, I need to find something more fullfilling, I have my little journal, thats more expressive and it has small pages with minimal words
MINIMALISM thats me! not this endless scrolling
I really dont like livejournal, it doesnt feel comfortable, it doesnt feel organic or inviting. ' Maybe its my site design' ive thought, or...' maybe those update forms, the really boring colors, am i not attracted to writing it in because of that? ' No....
I feel like I'm writing for someone when I write in here, not for myself , not my deep thoughts or new happenings, but just updating strangers, attracting the interest of people that I don't know at all.
This journal isn't helping me with anything, the words I express are boring and uninspired. I shouldn't be writing for no one, I shouldnt be writing for someone, a journal isnt PUBLIC , whats this idea anyways? By expressing yourself to an audience you are writing articles, you are writing essays and autobiographys, not ideas- not feelings, emotions or realizations!
Live...journal, live journal , whats live mean? does it mean its really happening, does it mean its happening right now. All this journal does is make me feel like i should have more friends so those friends can publicly view the nothingness that i have to say and why? I dont even like attention, I like connection, attention means connection without any emotions-right?
ATTENTION, thats a command, a command for someone to look at you but not feel or want anything, but just to look at you-to observe.
live journal makes no sense, Im leaving it as far as posting goes, I need to find something more fullfilling, I have my little journal, thats more expressive and it has small pages with minimal words
MINIMALISM thats me! not this endless scrolling