Numb.

[human_worth]

I have no feeling
anymore. I'm like stone.
Nothing hurts. But every
day pains me. It pains me
to wake up every morning.
It crushes me to look at
out old pictures. It rips
my heart out to know he
doesn't want to fight with
me, together.

I don't know what to do.
My friends are being amazing.
But I'm empty. A part of me is
a vast open space. And I used
to be able to fill it. It was
permantently filled. Or at
least I thought it was. I see
my other single friends and
they're fine. They don't seem to
be affected by their break up.
Plus I don't even know if we're
just on hold or are we really
broken up? I asked him but he said
he didn't know. I'm so frustrated.
I love him still. I asked his best
friend to look out for him for me.

I'm numb to everything.